Scripture Today

正如我經常講，神真是既可愛又可憎...
可憎的是他不會給你打開你的結局
可愛的是他一定會回答你的禱告

今日心情十分起伏，希望神給一些安慰，正值團契活動時有一環節是選經文。我跟神祈禱說，我不選啦，你給我甚麼就是甚麼啦。唉，神果然應允禱告。三節經文給我很大鼓勵。

順服: 悖逆的罪與行邪術的罪相等；頑梗的罪與拜虛神和偶像的罪相同。你既厭棄耶和華的命令，耶和華也厭棄你作王。(撒母耳記上15:23)

寬恕: 倘若這人與那人有嫌隙，總要彼此包容，彼此饒恕；主怎樣饒恕了你們，你們也要怎樣饒恕人。(歌羅西書3:13)

忍耐: 也要堅守我們所承認的指望，不至搖動，因為那應許我們的是信實的。(希伯來書10:23)

神啊...謝謝你...!

Being Honest?

"同事三分親"今日講"坦白"。

人總是希望人人對他坦白。

可是為何人總是在對方坦白時，卻喜愛利用對方對他的坦白，甚至使用對方對他的坦白而傷害對他坦白的人???

"溏心風暴"中的阿歡就是一個很好的例子，連親生阿媽都利用他的坦白，唉...點解?!?!?!

Perseverance

持之以恆

花多少心機和工夫
就會得到多少的回報
是沒有捷徑的

Dear all, Thank you

Last week, during a memorial ceremony of AFC founder Rev. & Mrs. Stephen Knights, I was reminded of this song "Thank you" by Ray Boltz. This reminds me of those who help me and shape me during the past twenty years of my life. They were/are my examples, and their proverbs will forever be in my mind.

To those who are/were in Ottawa, thank you for teaching me while I was hurting you. Thank you for all Sunday school teachers, as that was when my Biblical foundation being laid. Thank you for all choir members, as you are those who give me a hand and lift me up while I was down due to mistakes.

To Rev. Nelson, thank you for being my turning point.

To Raymond, you know how much you mean to me... thank you...!

To all my friends in Toronto, thank you for walking with me when I am in needed.

To Rev. Barclay, thank you for being my teacher/mentor for my seminary years.

Of course, cannot appreciate more for what my parents had given me.

Without all your support, I will not be the Kelvin today.

THANK YOU...!

I dreamed I went to heaven
And you were there with me;
We walked upon the streets of gold
Beside the crystal sea.
We heard the angels singing
Then someone called your name.
We turned and saw a young man running
And he was smiling as he came.

And he said, "Friend you may not know me now."
And then he said, "But wait,
You used to teach my Sunday School
When I was only eight.
And every week you would say a prayer
Before the class would start.
And one day when you said that prayer,
I asked Jesus in my heart."

Thank you for giving to the Lord.
I am a life that was changed.
Thank you for giving to the Lord.
I am so glad you gave.

Then another man stood before you
And said, "Remember the time
A missionary came to your church
And his pictures made you cry.
You didn't have much money,
But you gave it anyway.
Jesus took the gift you gave
And that's why I'm here today."

Thank you for giving to the Lord.
I am a life that was changed.
Thank you for giving to the Lord.
I am so glad you gave.

One by one they came
Far as the eye could see.
Each life somehow touched
By your generosity.
Little things that you had done,
Sacrifices made,
Unnoticed on the earth
In heaven, now proclaimed.

And I know up in heaven
You're not supposed to cry
But I am almost sure
There were tears in your eyes.
As Jesus took your hand
And you stood before the Lord.
He said, "My child, look around you.
Great is your reward."

Thank you for giving to the Lord.
I am a life that was changed.
Thank you for giving to the Lord.
I am so glad you gave.

Thank you for giving to the Lord.
I am a life that was changed.
Thank you for giving to the Lord.
I am so glad you gave.

Sleepless in Toronto 神啊!求求讓我睡

Since coming back to Toronto, this is not the first night, not the second night, but the third consecutive night that I cannot put myself to sleep.

Its too excited. I can't put myself to rest.
The war is so intense that I don't know how can I stop myself.
The most wonderful is I don't know who am I fighting with, may be its myself that I am fighting against. I am just too aggressive.

My dear God, I know there is the strength you give me. I know there is your wisdom for me.

God, I know you are there hearing my prayer. Please, answer my prayer.

神啊!求求讓我睡 - 劉浩龍

作曲 : 徐繼宗
作詞 : 林若寧
編曲 : 王雙駿
監製 : 王雙駿

夜間新聞終結又報鐘
鬧鐘分針恐嚇我失眠
看著面前未拆開的DVD經典
壓力來自望出窗口失去了光線

凌晨的三點即將消失於黑洞
勉強地埋頭睡覺就更加失控
好比給一口蚊咬令我浮腫
顧及到要上工 然後我更驚恐
DJ們仍為那些舊情歌動容
聽得我就算數綿羊都很激進
讓我尖叫 讓我跳海 樣樣亦無大作用

神啊!求求讓我睡 請不要再打雷
神啊!求求讓我睡 否則叫我死去
跳下床 我在狂亂的追追追追
拳頭出手打碎堵牆 一口飲了七杯凍水
連續五天輾轉反側難睡覺
可否今天正常進睡 差點哭得出眼淚

勤勞的巴士司機都開始出動
我過份避免睡意漸次的飄進
此刻竟收到一個撥錯電話
要睡覺 有暗湧 頭亦重 眼都腫
七點時如像有些病人的倦容
彷彿我像個死人針拮都不痛
沒有知覺 沒有扎醒 望著大床做惡夢

神啊!求求讓我睡 請不要再打雷
神啊!求求讓我睡 否則叫我死去
跳下床 我在狂亂的追追追追
拳頭出手打碎堵牆 一口飲了七杯凍水
連夜四點輾轉反側難睡覺 好比深宵正常次序

神啊!求求讓我睡 頭髮亂了承受那旱天雷
神啊!求求讓我睡 難以睡去來自摑多一鎚
跳下床 我在無目的追追追追
原本身體筋竭力疲 思想經過一番榨取
晨霧散開終於身心疲倦了
啞忍七天至能進睡
天光休息都有罪

小小的誤差

法政先锋2內裡的一段：人的心理真的很奇怪，只不過是小小誤差，就可顛倒整個世界觀，反轉所有是非黑白甚至殺人放火，他們都會覺得自己沒有錯。

回想這幾天跟不同的人談起基督教時，無論是否基督徒，我們很多時間其實都是因為對神的看法出現小小的誤差，以致對神產生一些不必要的誤解。可以是天然災難，又或是人為變數，我們都可能因為對神的不了解，而在慒然不知的情況下，把所有的事情的責任都負面地歸咎於神的身上。為著這些的誤解，我們有時會讓我們的信心失落，有時會因此不返教會，甚至有時覺得神的存在跟本上不重要，遠離我們應有的信仰，以為自己才是對的，並沒有錯。

神啊，其實我們才是最錯的，求你原諒我們的無知和小信，若孩子有甚麼時候有意無意的把神你"擺上檯"時，求你原諒。

當你軟弱疲倦時

法政先锋2內裡的一段：

即使你是如何巾幗不讓鬚眉，但當妳軟弱疲累的時候，心裡的他總會浮現出來。當你憶起遠方的人，一切就好像黑咖啡一樣，似苦還甘。令人夜半低迴，難以忘記。

我現在內心的一段：

即使你講到你自己是堅強，但當你軟弱疲累的時候，心裡的"她"總會浮現出來。當你憶起正在遠方的人，一切就好像黑咖啡一樣，似苦還甘。令人夜半低迴，難以忘記，難以入眠。

我現在祈禱的一段：
神啊... "她"在哪裡？"她"現在安好嗎？

Prayers

Last night after Lament, I have a chance to talk to a couple, who are my long-time friends. We talked about praying to God.

Prayers are something really you want to have but at the same time, hate to have. The biggest problem/enjoyment is: God will always answer your prayer.
You pray, you will get the answer.

No question will be asked if prayer is being answer as the way we want to happen.

The question then becomes: Do I have the faith to take the answer which is against my desire? i.e. Hey God, I don't like your answer, what's the matter with you...!

This is what we called understanding and following God's will and plan. And...

This is the most difficult homework for us (at least me, hee hee...)

Dear all... Add Oil...!

PRAY...!!!

今天心情

今天心情：我心照明月,明月照溝渠

奈何為何我心明知明月照溝渠,我心依舊照明月??

女孩們！勇敢說“NO！”

從去年尾到今天，打開報紙副刊，最熱門的八卦新聞，莫過於香港女星涉入「豔照門」事件。緣由一位陳姓男星及與他發生過親密關係之女子（包括女星、女模特兒......）的親密大膽照片，在網上流傳，沒想到涉及的女星居然有七八位以上，有些現今都已嫁為人妻或已為人母。這些照片引起軒然大波，不但對整個社會大眾，對女星個人之家庭名譽，以致前途都蒙上一層無法挪開的陰影。

看過這些報導，心中真是感歎萬分。真的，時代不同了，潮流趨向開放、大膽、前衛、新潮，所以许多走在時代尖端的女孩們，不問是非清白、善惡好壞，全部照單收，有樣學樣，唯恐跟不上潮流被人笑。結果，好事不出門，壞事傳千里，壞了自己的身軀、名譽、形象，何苦呀！值得嗎？

想起我們那時代父母管得可真嚴，上大學才可交男朋友，寫寫情書就很羅曼蒂克，不到很要好，小手都不可隨便給男生牽。衣服更是密實保守，女孩們個個爭著做大家閨秀或小家碧玉，羞答答文靜靜的。那時天天不是上課、補習、考試，回家就是溫書、做作業，偶爾聽聽收音機播放鄧麗君的柔美歌曲就很滿足了。日子也就過得平安踏實快樂。那時也沒聽過有什麼憂鬱症呢！

曾幾何時，西風東襲，女孩們打扮、衣著、言行皆仿隨好萊塢那些女星們，於是兩條帶子的內衣可裏衣外穿，內褲還要特意露一點讓人看到呢！更不要講露肩、露背、露腰，更何況這裏是熱帶地區，天熱嘛，名正言順愈穿愈少，愈穿愈短，當然也引出许多社會問題、亂象及影響。所以家中有正值十幾歲青春期兒女的父母，真應該多放點時間在自己的子女身上，多注意他們的言行舉止、交友、嗜好，多點時間來陪伴他們成長，聽聽他們的心聲，這樣的投資是值得，也是必要的。

有變有不變

我認為儘管時代在變，一切都在改變，但有些東西仍不可改變，如女孩子們對於自己的貞操、名節，該好好保護，絲毫不可隨便放鬆。雖不是做聖女，但至少要做到玉潔冰清、守身如玉。這樣做，不是為你的父母或其他人，其實是為你自己好。有人比喻女孩子的貞操如一根火柴，只能點燃一次，所以該保留到結婚後，獻給愛你的丈夫（其實男的亦然，不可美其名「博愛」而亂來的）。

在此次事件中，我們看到始作俑者的陳姓男星如此亂來，卻沒有像那些女明星們受到那麼大的批評、指摘及受抵制。當然，某女星以「那時太天真太傻」這句話來帶過一切的錯失，沒想到適得其，受到更多的批評嘲笑，其玉女形象蕩然無存，徹底破壞，且被網友譏為虛假。更甚者，其以往的廣告商、代言全部拒絕再以她做代言人。若只為貪一時的享樂而付上如此大的代價，真可謂是「損失慘重，得不償失」。所以女孩們，請三思，千萬別為愛情沖昏了頭，迷失了方向，將來後悔已為時太晚了。

安全的距離

其實現時代，男孩、女孩交交朋友，原無可厚非；但應限於大家在一起討論課業，看看電影，大夥一起去郊遊，在團體活動中要保持一定的距離。當感情更進一步，二人常單獨在一起時，就要小心了，千萬要注意－－「保持距離，以策安全」。一切的親密舉止都要有個限度，並要理智，千萬別為愛情「勇敢」地獻上一切，該保留的還是要堅持，做個聰明理智的女孩。情到濃時，應勇敢地說“NO”，更能獲得男孩的尊重與珍惜，你說對嗎？

當然，我鼓勵年輕男女多參加教會的團契活動，按年齡可參加如少團、青團、初成。在教會團契裏，有牧者顧問們的教導聖經真理與人生哲理，有同輩契友們的友愛、關懷互動，有一些健康活潑生動的聚會節目，在主的「愛」中學習如何成長相處，將「愛」由自私的二人之「情愛」發揚為主耶穌基督對世人的「關愛」及捨身救人之「大愛」。並有一顆聖潔的身心靈，在言行舉止表現出一個年輕基督徒的誠實善良，聖潔公義，並積極正面的人生觀。充滿朝氣蓬勃，誰都想跟你做朋友，走到哪里都受歡迎，還怕找不到理想的另一半嗎？我相信神為你所預備的另一半，必是超乎你所想所求的。

還有，手機、電腦也要謹慎使用，它們本是幫助我們辦事快速的工具，千萬不要為了好奇或「眼目的情欲」而落入色情的陷阱，那會愈陷愈深無法自拔的。而且一顆善良清潔的心，也會慢慢受影響、污染，至終受到最大傷害的仍是你自己。聰明的女孩子對於不明的電話邀約或色情的電腦畫面也要勇敢地說“NO”。

其實我所說的，使徒保羅早在他的時代對女性有所教育：「我又願女人廉恥、自守，以正派衣裳為妝飾，不以編發、黃金珍珠，和貴價的衣裳為妝飾。只要善行，這與自稱是敬上帝的女人相宜。」（提前2：9－10）但願以此經文與年輕的女孩們共勉之！


資料來源：馬來西亞《衛理報》
http://www.gospelherald.com.hk/news/edi_437.htm

Elephant Paints Self Portrait

Well, if you BELIEVE... really almost everything is possible.

「心善則到處天堂」... 弟兄，天堂見...!

陶弟兄，今天之前我完全不認識你，但想不到一認識你的第一天，也是認識你的最後一天。

弟兄，知道你的消息，看過你的見證，實在是悲喜交雜，樂怒難分，既羨慕又妒忌。

悲 - 為你的離開而悲傷
喜 - 為你能早日與主同在而歡喜
樂 - 能於事工上被接天家實在是最大的福氣
怒 - 神啊! 為什麼?
羨慕 - 你可以為神付出你的生命
妒忌 - 你在這麼年輕神便不再讓你操勞，亦走得咁爽，唔駛痛

陶弟兄，你叫我想到我的前老板，同樣地，一下子就可以與神同在，真係好想步你地後塺。

弟兄，為你家人祈禱，希望他們能明白神的心意，不要太傷心，願神賜福他們。

好好戀愛?!

《好好戀愛》
主唱：王祖藍 / 彭家麗　
作曲 / 填詞：陳立怡　
編曲：John Laudon
© 音樂人製作有限公司 Music Man Productions Limited

(孩子)我的天父，可否讓我好好地談戀愛，
不再流淚，不再傷痛，不再聚合又要分開。
我的天父，我只想要安穩地找個人來愛，
請讓我知道那個人在不在。

(天父)我的孩子，難道你忘記了我就是愛，
學懂愛我，學懂愛你自己，你就懂好好戀愛。
我的孩子，何不嘗試安靜地慢慢去等待，
你就會知道那個人在不在。

(天父)你是否願意相信，每時每刻都在我手裏，
(孩子)願 意 相 信， 　　

(合)沒有事情是太早或是太遲。

(天父)願 意 相 信，
(孩子)愛我的主，我願意相信，萬事萬物都在祢手裏，

(天父)我教你順服，我的旨意。
(孩子)請教我順服，祢的旨意。

Coach: that's all you have done...!

Price had a great job Saturday. DON'T BLAME HIM...! He did what he suppose to do, and do it more than everyone expected. Stopping Briere break away late in third period is the best proved. But your poor defence match up just give another turn over which cost us the series. "We want our goaltenders to be better." Is that what you blaming for...? Listen to the fan at Bell Centre, they have their full support on Carey... Coach, how about you?

Come on Coach... tell me why the opposite team will get that many easy shot...?
Where is your coaching when the team need the most?
Don't put the team on the spot when YOU are not doing the job...!
Horrible match up against the most physical team in the league... totally mismatch.
One of the league best defencemen this year, Roman Hamrlik who is doing a great job for the season, +7, is -3 in this game.
Coach, you are making one of the best teams in the league look stupid. Can't find their best, but showing all the weakness during the series.
Then, when losing, blaming the youngest, speechless, helpless goalie in the game for not doing his job...?
Covering your own mistakes by taking down others...
That is absolutely not acceptable.

Coach, its time to take your own responsibility. Don't ask other to take your responsibility when you are not doing your job...!

Poor Carey

See, be sure you know what you are doing when finger pointing. Price is the reason for the fall? Come on... obviously its not. Its bad coaching that making the Canadaians falling behind 3-1 today.

Stupid coach always kill his own team. Instead of faith building, he chose to make things more complicated when he hinted the bench of Price the other day. That not only not building up the sliding team, but also hurting the dynamic in the locker room. Everyone is giving praise to Price the other day, and the next day, he is the one to be blamed. Come on, give me a break.

Clearly, today, the team cannot play as a team. 0-4 for power play. Two bad goals by Halak. And the worse of all, bad coaching -- poor discipline -- stupid penalty by Begin. It cost the team a game.

Well, an other example of

Bad decision by coach --> bad game by the players --> lost

Carey Price ... Me

"He is twenty years old, you can't forget about that"
This is the world, if they don't believe in you, they won't... even with good performance.

Yeah, when Huet was being trade, I remember I wrote here "How can Montreal go to the final with Price alone"? Even as stupid as me will ask that question. Once the move is make, the only thing what we can do is: support him as much as you can, build his confidence and forget what your doubt is.

But now, the fans, the media, the coach, the management is having all their pressure and critics on Price just because he lost back to back games to Philadephia. Come on, you know it from the beginning when the trade took place. And now, you are blaming him because "He is 20-years old"? If you don't believe in him, don't do/say anything seems like you are believing in him at the beginning. This sucks...!

Why everyone is forgetting that in the Boston series, he had been in that situation already... losing two in a row. What is the response from Price? Giving you a nice shut out on Game 7. Yes, Game 7, the most important game, life or death. He can survive in this life or death situation, why can't you believe that Price can carry you thru this time again...? Shame on you people...!

And, don't forget, there are also Montreal forwards and defences in the team. We win as a team and lose as a team. Not the goalie. This is the world. They never appreciate what you have done for them. They only make you look worse when you are down. Sigh...

Carey... I believe that you can do a great job and lead our Canadians to the best. Go Carey Go...!

沉思

盧雲的沉思

你依然在掙扎，希望看見自己的真相。那些清楚明白你的心、真誠愛護你的人告訴你：你是神的兒女；祂已經進入你的深處；並且你很多時候也將由神得來的，與其他人分享。當你聽到這些說話時，你視之為只不過是鼓勵的話。你並不相信這些人所記得一切就是他們親眼看見的。

你必需學像你這些真心朋友般看自己。若你一直對自己的真相視而不見，會繼續把自己比下去，覺得任何一個人都比你更好、更聖潔、更值得被愛。你仰視所有人，在他們裏面看見善良、美麗和愛，因為你不能在自己身上看見這些素質。結果，你開始依附其他人，而無法認識到你擁有自力更新所需的一切。

然而，你是無法勉強事情發生的。你沒可能把自己模造成其他人眼中的那個人。假如你某些部份依然剛愎自用，你便無法完全肯定你自己。你需要承認你在何處，確定那個地方。你必需願意在你的寂寞、你的缺憾、你未能完全的道成肉身中無懼地生活，且相信神會差遣某些人來，不斷向你展示你是誰這個真相。


宗仔的沉思

我依然在掙扎，不希望看見自己的真相。那些清楚明白我的心、真誠愛護我的人告訴我：你是神的兒女；祂已經進入你的深處；並且給予你最好的。當我聽到這些說話時，我視之為只不過是鼓勵的話。我並不相信這些人所看見的一切就是他們親眼看見的圖畫的全部。

可能我必需學像我這些真心朋友般看自己。若我一直對自己的真相堅持下去，會繼續讓自己比下去，覺得任何一個人都比我更好、更聖潔、更值得被愛。我身邊所有人，在他們眼裏面看見我的善良、美麗和愛，可是我卻不能在自己身上看見這些素質。結果，我開始不信任其他人，而更加無法明白到自己所需的一切。

然而，我是無法勉強事情發生的。我沒可能把自己模造成他眼中的那個人。假如他某些部份依然剛愎自用，他便更加無法完全肯定我自己。他需要承認我在何處，確定那個地方。我並不願意在寂寞、缺憾中生活，我固且相信神會差遣某些人來，不斷向他展示我是誰這個真相。


宗仔的祈禱

神啊！我要承認人家對我的批評，叫我明白我的真相。然而，神啊，求你也叫我能積極地覺得自己是比得上他人的。

世上之最

甚麼是世上最難捉摸的？
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沉默

等...真的會有結果嗎?

當我在看<白色巨塔>時，看到蘇怡華可以用十幾年的時間去等一個明知是在背叛他、另有男人的女人，最後比佢等到。而家先得十幾集，我唔知後面係點，起碼比佢等到。

我係到反思自己，為甚麼我會等一個只會我背叛他、而佢永遠等我的神的一個答案時我會咁辛苦。
一方面我會同神投訴，到現在我已經等佢一個答案等了七年，到而家都仲係得個等字。
但係另一方面，我又會去這樣想：神由我三歲懂性開始都等到我這個不肖子十五年才願意回頭是岸；再加多十幾年時間的艱辛教導，才等到這個忤逆仔可以出黎講幾句「神話」，為神的國度做個少少野。真係有些少慚愧，好對唔住呢個對我咁好的神。

唉... 等、唔等、等、唔等、等、唔等、等、唔等、等、唔等、等、唔等、等、唔等... 真係好掙扎...!

本來今朝想到這個時，話緊比自己聽，要對神有信心，不可辜負神對你的一番栽培。
但係下午就收到"THE EMAIL"... 唉...好唔開心。

唉...神啊! 「等」真係知易行難...!

Gym again...

After almost three months lack of exercise, I finally get back to exercise today. Although I am not yet fully recovered, and did not really do much except walking... Well, at least got some sweat out... :P