Tuesday, December 23, 2008

“Learn, Receive and Practice” - 2008 Year End Review

“Learn, Receive and Practice” - 2008 Year End Review

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What you have learned and received and heard and seen in me--practice these things, and the God of peace will be with you. (Phil 4:9)
你們在我身上所學習的,所領受的,所聽見的,所看見的,這些事你們都要去行,賜平安的神就必與你們同在。(腓立比書2章4-9節)

Merry Christmas…!
In the year of 2008, God teach me one important element as a Christian:

“Learn, Receive and Practice”

AFC’s mission is to develop a contagious Christian student witness among the Chinese Canadians. For the past twelve months, God let me to serve Him in different aspects: CCFs, MAM and administration. Through these ministries, God guide me the way to be the light and salt among all these future leaders who are now studying in Toronto, Waterloo, Sudbury, London and other Ontario cities.


Panama’s 2nd generation is in great need. Each year, more than 200 youths participate in different church camps to learn more about God and His teaching. Last February, I had the opportunity to serve in Panama for four weeks. During this month, not only that I learnt how to serve in a cross-cultural environment, I also learnt how to serve under emotional attack, to lean on His guidance and grace. It was a wonderful experience. Please visit my personal blog at www.xteam.ca where I shared all the grace God had laid upon me. From February 4 to Mar 10 of 2009, I am glad to have the chance to serve in Panama again, please keep praying for me and all the ministries in Panama.

Pray: Please continue to pray and support AFC ministry in 2009. To sharpen our focus in serving today’s students and youth, AFC has launched a strategic ministry realignment in 2008, and is aimed to complete “Phase 1” of the process by early 2009. On behalf of AFC Canada, let me express again our deepest appreciation for your support and partnership. For more information, please visit www.afc-ca.org.

May God bless you with a Merry Christmas and Happy New Year…!




Friday, November 28, 2008

Simple Love

(節錄自國證網絡--給你同行者「簡單的愛」)

那天,我陪同一位年愈八十的老太太去看病。

老太太由於常年罹患風濕關節炎,以致全身關節總是疼痛不已,每天的行動儘管有助行架的協助卻仍然是舉步維艱,動作異常緩慢。我陪老太太在候診室等了幾乎半個小時後才輪到她進去見醫生。

老太太見的是一位風濕關節炎專科的女醫生。我協助老太太進了醫生的房間慢慢地坐下後,醫生在電腦屏幕前看完她的病歷,就臉無笑容、禮貌但是態度冷漠的問她上次給開的藥吃了效果如何? 老太太靦腆的回答沒有吃那些葯,原因是它們的副作用太多也太強,她恐怕身體承受不了,因為自己一人獨居,每天要張羅基本的起居飲食已經困難重重,要是再因為藥物副作用導致不適而臥床的話,身邊沒有人照料,那情況是相當孤苦和艱辛的,所以考慮再三還是決定不吃,努力忍痛就算了。醫生聽了老太太的話,完全沒有認同眼前這位老病人內心的憂慮和無助,臉上不悅之情一覽無遺,繼之再聽到老太太說家庭醫生將會給她做肝、腎功能的檢查,並且亦有給她開輕量的止痛藥片等,馬上更加冷峻的指出既然家庭醫生能夠照顧老太太健康方面的需要,也就沒有再來見她的必要了,因為既然她開的藥病人選擇不服用,這是拒絕治療的表示,那麼她已經無能為力,來看她也只是枉然,說完了就站起來送客,老太太這時對醫生的反應有點不知所措,我無言以對,只好扶著老太太向醫生道謝,然後慢慢走出她的診室…
送了無可奈何的老太太乘車回家,我因為女醫生的態度,心裡相當不是味兒。病人不合作,醫生難免會感到束手無策,女醫生認為自己在老太太這個病人的個案裡扮演不上任何重要角色的心理,我十分能理解,然而醫者父母心,病人求醫時對醫生總是抱有不同程度的希望和期待,儘管醫生對病情或治療的方式沒法掌握到肯定的對策,但要是醫生具有可親的態度、能夠體諒病人的難處和痛楚、願意接受和認同病人的立場的話,那麼醫生的親切、耐心和微笑,均能成為病人心靈的良藥,是病人在憂心和痛苦中一種寶貴的、無言的支柱。

微笑具有破冰的作用,微笑亦能夠縮短人與人之間的距離,削減尷尬、提供鼓勵。生活的挑戰越多,人心對得到別人的認同與接受的需求就越明顯;我們身邊需要關懷、渴望鼓勵的人日益加增,雖然我們能夠為別人做到的極其有限,我們沒有辦法去改變現實環境的衝擊、也不可能扭轉一些既成事實的現狀,但是我們完全能夠以誠摯的心意去接受別人的難處,以淡淡的笑容去表達我們無私的關懷。

關懷是溫暖的傳遞,是愛的表達;關懷不一定要刻意的去做些什麼,但是關懷裡面具備了愛── 坦誠的愛,簡單的愛。
路加福音6:31告訴我們:「你們願意人怎樣待你們,你們也要怎樣待人。」
唐昕




Tuesday, November 18, 2008

If... MY LOVE IS not YOU...

假如 我的愛不是你 就讓我的船繼續飄泊 在無崖的憂鬱中
從此 孤獨在子午線遊走 失落的靈魂 不再懂得愛
我會把苦戀的痛畫左額角 憂鬱刻在眉
我會把我的愛 跟你的身體一起焚燒
用一個紫色的小盒子
承載著 我們我灰燼
承載著 我們無法完全的愛......




節錄自<伴在我身旁>中的一段




Monday, November 17, 2008

Turn your emotions from -ve to +ve

將負面情緒變成正面頻率
2008-11-11 11:16 Posted on 基督日報


1、生氣
一種高能量的情緒,可以被用來幫助我們作出反應並採取行動,可使我們能夠克服那些本不可逾越的障礙和困難。

它經常與我們不喜歡的情況相連在一起,它為我們提供能量使我們採取行動對這些障礙和困難作出反應。

生氣就是鼓氣,一鼓作氣才能成功。

2、悲傷
一種能促進深沉思考的反應,能更好的從失去種取得智慧,從而更珍惜目前所擁有的。


3、後悔
找出一個得不到的最好效果的做法中的意義,提醒我們,要找出一個更好效果的作法,同時讓我們更明確內心價值關的排序。

4、左右為難
說明內心價值觀的排序尚未清晰明確。

5、恐懼
一種高能量的情緒,恐懼可以提高神經系統的靈敏度,並能使意識性增強,這對我們提高對潛在問題的警覺性很有幫助。它使我們獲得本不能得到的信息,它使我們迅速作出反應,並在必要條件下選擇逃避。

6、無可奈何
已知的辦法全不適用,需要創新與突破思考。

7、內疚
這是一種與評估是非對錯連在一起的情緒。如果我們沒有其他的方式評估與價值有關的行為的話,內疚可限制我們的行為選擇範圍。現在我們明白了這個道理,我們就能用更富有建設性的評估方法來取代內疚。

8、緊張
太好了!讓我們有額外的能量去保證成功。

9、害怕
不甘願付出本來自己認為需要自己付出,或者覺得付出的大過得到的。它促使我們對所期望的東西重新進行評價及對實現期望採取的方法進行重新調整。

10、慚聭
一件表面上已經完結的事,但還需要採取一個行動的部分。

11、失望
發生在所期望的目標已確定但沒有實現的時候,是一種能促使對期望作出重新評估及對實現期望目標所採取的方法作出重新調整的信號。

12、討厭
需要擺脫或者改變的提醒信號,幫助我們去找出改變及擺脫的辦法。

13、憤怒
一種高能量的情緒,可以充分調動身體的能量,準備對一個不願接受的狀況作出改變的行動。

14、壓力
是轉變動力之前的準備,就想彈簧一樣,壓得越低,談得越高。

15、憂慮
一種高能量的情緒,它把主意力集中在一個就要發生,但後果令我們擔心的事情上。讓我們出去精力集中的狀態並將變成興奮,為我們提供為事件做好準備的能量。

16、痛苦
使我們能避開危險,並提升人生經驗的信號。

從上面這些定義中我們明白,每個負面情緒其實都是給人一份推動力,推動當事人作出行動,這種推動力或者是指出了一個方向,也可能給予了一種力量,或者兩者皆有。

我們相信上帝為我們安排的所有情緒都有正面意義的,因而我們所認定的負面情緒也許並不是我們所認為的那樣討厭,是完全值得我們重視的,別忘了情緒本身就是一種能量!

既然問題不在情緒本身,就要看你如何去拓展情緒上的選擇空間,也就是運用情緒的能力。如果你感覺你在情緒上無能為力,那麼,負面情緒似乎往往要佔上風,它甚至主宰並控制你的行為。雖然很多人提醒你,應該設法避開負面情緒,但所有的負面情緒都是為人服務的。

有時候,當你感到自己有一種負面情緒時,你外在的意識通常就通知你對這些情緒作出評估。假如,你最近感到工作上很有壓力,你就會問自己:最近是否需要在工作中加入一些動力?如果答案是肯定的,你就會讓自己去體會這種壓力,這是你的選擇。

你我主動這麼做的時候,事實上,壓力已經不是壓力,它更是一種刺激,一種挑戰,一種動力!在此其間,你的外在意識會定期的使你對壓力予以注意,因而你會對你的想法所維持的時間的長短是否合適作出估計。如果已經達到合適的程度,你就會選擇一種新的情緒狀態,對你來說,時間量的大小就是你獲得信息並決定對其怎樣作出反應所需要的時間。

進一步說,所謂的負面情緒,多數都是把我們的注意力轉移到那些不開心的事情上。通過把我們的注意力引向不開心的事並使我們處於一種情緒狀態,通過這些狀態就可以幫助我們對所處的局面做出評價,所有負面情緒狀態可以幫助我們搞清楚事情並找到解決困難的方法。如果這個反應過程中,外部環境發生變化,我們就會完全自由的調整我的情緒狀態以應對新的情況作出反應。

我們的情緒的發生總是配合生活中的每一件事,幫助我們向著自己的主觀願望前景。負面情緒的真的很有道理,而且是有用的。當你再去體驗負面情緒的時候,結果發現痛苦感不見了,你就會看到負面情緒可以為你服務,並能不斷的幫助你找到方法同時給予能量動力去解決困難。

你一旦獲得了情緒上的自由,也就大大拓展了精神領域的活動空間,例如,當你情緒低落的時候,如悲傷,你的意識可能會馬上提醒你:喂,別忘了,它是為你服務的「因而你就會感到悲傷和一種更積極的感覺,例如在快樂之間作出選擇,你當然會選擇快樂,難道不是嗎?

態度就像磁鐵,不論我們的思想是正面的還是負面的,我們都受它的牽引,而思想就想輪子一般,使我們朝著一個特定的方向前進。

雖然我們無法選擇發生的事情,但我們可以選擇我們的情緒狀態,雖然我們無法調整環境來適應你的生活,但可以調整情緒來適應一切的環境。畢竟,你的生活不是由生命所發生的事所決定的,而是自己面對生命的態度,和你的心靈看待事情的態度來決定的。

基督日報記者
(url: http://www.gospelherald.ca/news/lif_1042.htm)


Thursday, November 13, 2008

"Love" cannot be fulfill without "Forgiveness"...

Last night... during Waterloo CCCF, I was being reminded....
沒有"原諒"又怎能"好好戀愛"???




原諒 - 張崇基、張崇德

只有恨 是會更加寂寞
必需要 拋開積怨的驅殼
於世上 誰人從無幻覺
犯錯 走進死角

不再問 是那方的錯誤
只知道 彼此都也覺辛苦
請放下 遺忘重重事故
嘗試 減輕痛苦

(合)能再看清楚他兩眼睛
能記憶起當天的高興
能原諒他幹過每件壞事情
這種愛才是真感性
能設想他的感覺處境
能徹底將開心窩傾聽
能原諒不再記掛舊日事情
這種愛贏得致敬

(合)神為你捨己甘願犧牲
憑著愛寬恕世上罪人
成就了 祂的應許 祂的拯救
這種愛才是真愛
如你學懂這寬恕的心
憑著它可將心窩拉近
無用再分你我對或錯
一起牽手將永恆擁有
真愛可擁有





《好好戀愛》
主唱:王祖藍 / 彭家麗 
作曲 / 填詞:陳立怡 
編曲:John Laudon
© 音樂人製作有限公司 Music Man Productions Limited

(孩子)我的天父,可否讓我好好地談戀愛,
不再流淚,不再傷痛,不再聚合又要分開。
我的天父,我只想要安穩地找個人來愛,
請讓我知道那個人在不在。

(天父)我的孩子,難道你忘記了我就是愛,
學懂愛我,學懂愛你自己,你就懂好好戀愛。
我的孩子,何不嘗試安靜地慢慢去等待,
你就會知道那個人在不在。

(天父)你是否願意相信,每時每刻都在我手裏,
(孩子)願 意 相 信,   

(合)沒有事情是太早或是太遲。

(天父)願 意 相 信,
(孩子)愛我的主,我願意相信,萬事萬物都在祢手裏,

(天父)我教你順服,我的旨意。
(孩子)請教我順服,祢的旨意。




Tuesday, November 11, 2008

Love really matters

今日有機會睇番上個星期的"同事三分親",實在很能理解"愛情"這個名詞。

裘俊為了Diana,竟然去放棄一個賢良淑德、願意為佢去煮飯洗衫的富家表妹。真係唔明...! 他寧願每天的捱駡捱打,也願意甘心在心愛的人旁邊,不離不棄,實在佩服。

你可能會用"蠢"、"傻"甚至"白痴"去形容狗俊,又或許你會話這個世界怎會有這些男人連自己尊嚴都唔要,去為一個連自己都唔知點解會等的"她"而放棄整個森林。

男人,如果你係咁想,就證明你還未真正理解愛的定義。愛是需要付出,不求代價;就算要犧牲自我也甘心才是真正的愛。耶穌為男人作了一個好的見證,不計算世人的回應,也不理會我們是否願意接納祂的犧牲,卻已把自己的生命獻上在十字架之上。當然,我地唔係神,唔可以好似耶穌愛世人,只係要求你愛你身邊的一個,點解都唔得?(其實如果話愛一個都咁難,我就真係唔明點解有D人仲可以一腳踏兩船,以為自己係情聖,唉...!)

女人,如果你有以上的想法,那就證明你對愛及男人的信心唔夠。因為我可以百分百肯定這個世界有這些男人,仲要唔只耶穌一個,只不個係你唔敢去相信這個世界會有這些男人,就是在妳旁邊,你都會當無。如果你覺得你已經找到一個,千其唔好好似Diana咁,利用男人對你的愛,不斷的去挑戰這個男人的底線?正所謂物極必反,去得太盡,過咗底線,因為連個男人也未必知道自己的底線係邊度;到時佢頂唔順,並不代表你的勝利,也不代表你對男人的睇法正確,反之只是傷害了一個願意為你犧牲的男人的弱小心靈。

狗俊...唔係...應該係裘俊至真,雖然我唔知你之後的選擇,但係我明白你會認同這段"等"是值得的。

努力呀,我以你為傲。


Friday, November 07, 2008

Mr. Bean? Nope... Its Mr. Bian


Yesterday, I was so fortunate that I had a chance to lunch with our beloved brother, Mr. Bian Yan Bo (無名的傳道者 - 邊雲波老師). During the whole conversation, I found out that he had more passion with God than I have expected. The grace of God flowing through every bit of his own experience and his teaching.

Throughout Wednesday TCEMF seminar and yesterday lunch, there is one thing he keep reminding me. Experience God cannot be fully fulfill unless we learn how to go through difficulties with God.

Yes, we will thank God when everything in life pass through with no hassle. However, its always during pain and trouble that we truly learn about God and will understand God more. As we always said, NO PAIN, NO GAIN. That's always true.

We are so luxury here in North America, that we do not really have much pressure in believing God. Well, actually we did. We have to fight through all the distractions from the world ( we actually should not use the term secular world, as the whole world suppose to be holy and spiritual under the control of God, right???).

Sleep 30 more minutes as we only drive 15 minutes to church. Have the devotion later at night, because CSI only end at 11 with my favorite CTV news follows till midnite. Reading the Bible become more electronic, so as my spiritual journal (they are now all typed during the distraction of email arrival warnings).

With all these comfort, are we willing to give up our luxury and back to original - God? Do I really want to sacrifice my luxury and to experience God throughout tough times? Its really a good question to myself.

Well, hopefully you have a better spiritual life than I do, and have a better relationship with God...!!

Enjoy your life...!


Thursday, October 30, 2008

Halloween...???

別讓萬聖節沖淡基督徒的屬靈警覺(基督日報)

【本報專訊】萬聖節即將來臨,城中多個地點均以「恐怖氣氛」作為賣點,舉辦萬聖節活動,如煙花匯演、恐怖村、幽靈列車、迷途魂靈遊行等,邀請家長攜同小朋友穿着鬼怪服裝或戴著驚悚面具出席。

事實上,萬聖節已越來越變得商業化,根據研究機構 BIGresearch數年前為美國全國零售聯盟進行調查,發現53.3%的顧客會在萬聖節前夕購物,平均消費額$38.11美元,以此推算,美國消費者為萬聖節支出的金額高達33億美元。

此外,以商業化包裝的萬聖節也滲入各大中小學校園,亦有不少團體把籌款小錢箱通過學校派發給小孩,讓小孩"Trick or Treat!"(討糖果) 時順道收集捐款。有的教會學校也隨世俗潮流推行萬聖節教學活動日,表示要營造氣氛,建立歡樂校園。

有人說萬聖節是歐美社會的文化活動,讓學生參與認識西方文化沒有什麼不妥。但亦有牧師特別提醒信徒,萬聖節是源於古代的通靈和迷信文化,會潛移默化地荼毒學生的心靈。基督徒不可忘記聖經真理的教導:「人偏向交鬼的和行巫術的,隨從他們行邪淫…你們不可隨從他們的風俗,因為他們行了這一切的事,所以我厭惡他們…你們要歸我為聖,因為我耶和華是聖的。」(利20:6,23,26)

萬聖節通常與靈異的事物聯繫起來。歐洲傳統上認為萬聖節是鬼魂世界最接近人間的時間,這與中國的盂蘭節類似。萬聖節起源於不列顛凱爾特人的傳統節日,在10月的最後一天,他們相信這是冬天的開始,是一年的重要標誌,被稱為「鬼節」。這一天各種惡鬼出沒,死去人們的靈魂也會離開身體,在世間遊走。為了嚇走邪惡的鬼魂,他們會由祭司主持祭祀典禮,焚燒動物為祭牲,施行法術和點燃火炬祛除污靈。

後來雖有教會把當日改為記念已逝聖徒的諸聖節,但已無法改變民間信仰的迷信陋習,而且在流傳到世界各地之後,還渲染了更多巫術和邪惡的特色,如大玩靈應盤和撲克占卜。
(xteam: 此點有些不正確,歷史上教會把翌日(十一月一日)定為記念已逝聖徒的諸聖節。羅馬皇帝君士坦丁信主後,立基督教為國教,當時的基督教實際已演變成天主教。君士坦丁下令全國人民都要皈依基督教,結果沒有悔改的異教徒加入了教會,把各樣異教作風帶進來,包括死節,他們要維持這節日為生活的一部份。
由於教會無法消除民眾的異教風俗,只有把部份風俗聖化,特別是十月卅一日的死節。在第八世紀,羅馬教皇定十一月一日為萬聖日(All Saints’ Day),來記念教會史上一切殉道的聖徒。這樣,十月卅一日便是萬聖日的前夕。天主教會容許民眾在十月卅一日守節,因為十一月一日是聖日。後來All Saint’s Day 變成All Hallows Day,而hallows是「神聖」的意思,十月卅一日便是萬聖夜(All Hallows Evening)。Evening後來縮減為eve和een,前者是「前夕」的意思,後者是evening的縮寫,意即夜晚」,便成為今天的Halloween,代表死節是萬聖日的前夕。reference: history.com)

為抗衡「慶祝」萬聖節的歪風,亦有教會特別在10月31日晚上舉行秋季家庭節,希望吸引信徒或非信徒參加。此外,信徒們亦有互傳電郵,提醒弟兄姊妹萬聖節是基督徒不該慶祝的節日,千萬別助長通靈邪術的推廣,誤導青少年人接觸通靈交鬼的事,沖淡了基督徒屬靈的警覺。

屈子君
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Wednesday, October 08, 2008

讚美之泉游智婷:服事需要EQ

【本報專訊】你聽說過「服事的EQ」嗎?其實,服事不僅需要恩賜,更需要EQ!讚美之泉上週六在紐約信心聖經教會舉行敬拜研習會,事工創辦人游智婷牧師分享服事的EQ,幫助大家在服事上重新得力。

游牧師認為恩賜與EQ對服事來講是同樣重要的。只可惜,不少年輕而又有恩賜的弟兄姊妹忽視EQ的培養導致他們在服事中遭遇摩擦時便垂頭喪氣,打退堂鼓。

對於如何培養服事的EQ,游牧師提出六點建議。首先,服事者要有順服的心。她對「順服」進一步的要求--完全、馬上且心裏的順服,做不到這三方面就不能算是真正的順服。

游牧師坦誠做到順服是不容易的,這是所有事奉者一輩子要學習的課,不過越早學習越好。

第二,受教的心。要想提升服事的水準必須要有謙卑受教的心,不斷學習才能取得長久進步。游牧師見證讚美之泉不少的成員剛加入團隊事奉時並不突出,但經過刻苦的學習後都成為優秀的敬拜帶領者。

第三、對事不對人。在團隊服事中免不了會遇到別人對自己的批評,遊牧師認為大部分的批評都是善意的,是對事不對人的,所以她教導大家要用信心、樂觀的態度接納別人的批評,要相信:「我可以做得更好!」

再次,事奉者還要有好的態度。日常工作中雇主會要求雇員待客戶時要有好的態度,在教會事奉的基督徒更是如此。而且,一個人的態度、臉上表情甚至會影響一個服事的團隊。可見,態度對服事是何等的重要。

遊牧師又強調服事的EQ第五點--委身。她認為現今的華人年輕基督徒普遍欠委身,而且這些弟兄姊妹常常換教會或服事的團隊。遊牧師給這批人起了個名字「流浪的服事者」。

她認為在固定一個地方委身事奉有助於信徒的靈命和服事取得進步,而常在各教會或服事團隊「走來走去」的流浪服事者將更加疲憊甚至縮短服事壽命。

最後,服事者還要有一顆感恩的心。「當你常懷感恩的心,那麼你的服事則會變得不一樣,無論做什麼都會充滿主的恩典和喜樂。」

全威
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Link: http://www.gospelherald.ca/news/cul_836.htm

港調查發現半數被訪青少年為戀愛忍受暴力對待

【香港消息】基督教突破機構青年研究網絡近期一項「青少年戀愛傾向研究」發現,逾半被訪青少年的戀愛裡暗藏了暴力氣息。分析者表示不少青少年因缺乏家庭溫暖和安全感而默默忍受,建議面對戀愛暴力的青少年尋求調解。

青年研究網絡在07年末至今年初向逾500名年齡介乎10至24歲有戀愛經驗的青少年進行訪問。青少年戀愛的狀態甚不穩定,45%被訪者初戀年齡低於16歲,13歲以下初戀也有10%之多。當中約11%已「換畫」6次或以上。3成人每次拍拖不到半年甩拖。

有關戀愛中的暴力面,被訪者中,近半曾被以「白癡」、「死蠢」辱罵,近54%被愛侶取笑身材和樣貌;近29%曾被對方打傷,更有35.2%人曾在不自願下,被伴侶強迫愛撫。

據大公報報導,城市大學青年研究室總監黃成榮分析指出,不少青少年缺乏家庭溫暖和安全感,怕失去伴侶而忍受對方的暴力對待,或用性行為滿足對方。他建議青少年尋求關係的調解,互相聆聽心聲,學習控制脾氣等,以改善情況,必要時尋求專家幫助,甚至和平分手。

一些基督教機構防範於未然,教導青少年正確的婚戀觀,如本港的大衞城文化中心近年針對時下年青人的婚戀問題,積極在中小學生中推行「貞潔校園」運動,教導青少年包括在真理下彼此敬重、共同成長的愛情觀。

陳麗斯
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Link: http://www.gospelherald.ca/news/soc_838.htm

Tuesday, October 07, 2008

15分鐘親近神

15分鐘親近神/林美妏(校園書房出版社行銷企劃)

乍見《15分鐘親近神》時,心想:到底15鐘就想要親近神?!不是開我玩笑吧!當然是每天至少要花30分鐘到1小時的時間來讀經禱告囉!15分鐘未免太不把上帝放在眼裡了吧!後來,隨著工作的繁忙,睡眠時間似乎跟著靈修時間做拉鋸戰,很多時候落得只能利用早晨醒來的時刻,花短短幾秒鐘感謝上帝,將心歸向祂,求祂幫助我度過繁忙的一天。
後來,再次閱讀艾蜜莉的《15分鐘親近神》,卻忍不住一口氣將這本書從頭到尾全都讀完,並且倒抽一口氣!這樣的靈修書輕、薄、短、小,卻是天天精彩,不是「紙上談兵」,同時鼓勵忙碌的婦女在日常生活,活出每日所學。每日都有一些實用的主題,背後有聖經經文作支撐,再加上作者獨一無二的見解、洞見,幫助忙碌的婦女在柴、米、油、鹽、醬、醋、茶中,利用寶貴的時間喘息,親近上帝,作為一天生活動力的來源。

作者挑戰忙碌的婦女:每天做的事情,到底是重要的事?還是急事?作者並沒有要大家一步登天,好高騖遠每天馬上挪出1個小時靈修,乃是從看似短短的15分鐘開始;她也不要求有固定時間、固定地點,或清晨或夜晚,隋時隨地都可以親近神。可不要小覷這區區每天的15分鐘,因為只要循序漸進,21天以後,你就可以養成習慣。令我很訝異的是:連時間管理、整理家務、人際往來、準備食物、選擇禮物、開放家庭等等,也都可以跟靈修生活連結在一起,內容包容萬象,並且緊密結合聖經中的教導,不但能喚起女性對自己個性特質的重視,著重於品德、屬靈的美貌、溫柔、安靜的培養,更有根據聖經教養孩子的方針、如何敬重丈夫、作個才德婦女的建言等等。
每一天都有一段「閱讀經文」,隨後有作者鼓勵讀者「付諸行動」的建議事項,還有意猶未盡時的「延伸閱讀經文」。閱讀這本靈修書,就像是在看祖母的甜美故事,令人驚豔!藉由故事分享,我們可以在艾蜜莉身上,看見上帝的奇妙作為。我一邊花上15 分鐘時間靈修,一邊將上帝的話語牢牢記住,又一邊閱讀著艾蜜莉的生命故事,宛如身邊多了個有智慧的好奶奶,讓我深深體會敬虔的婦女,如何真正成為別人的祝福,就像這句諺語所說的一樣:「家有一老,如有一寶。」

《15分鐘親近神》
作者:艾蜜莉(Emilie Barnes)

艾蜜莉是一位作家,也是四處巡迴向婦女演講的知名講員。許多人都知道她敬虔愛主、熱情教導管理家庭及款待客人。
她的著作豐富,已經出版了六十多本書,特別針對忙碌的現代人而寫、非常受歡迎的數分鐘默想系列叢書──本書即為其中一本,還有:15 Minutes Devotions for Couples、15 Minutes Meditations for Busy Moms、15 Minutes Meditations for Healing and Hope。

出版日期:2008年10月

https://shop.campus.org.tw/ReadingBanquet/08.9-10/a1264.htm


Sunday, September 28, 2008

YOU don't understand ME...



你不懂我的心 鍾嘉欣
(國語)

作曲:Alex Lung 填詞:張美賢
編曲:杜自持 監製:杜自持

你說你要飛翔的自由 只不過是一個藉口 我也會接受  
曾經牽着你的手 還有甚麼要求 我只要退在你背後
總有一天我會成為你最好的朋友 無理取鬧也會忍受 現在同眼淚倒流

我不懂你的心 還要守到最後
就算愛情厭舊 從指縫溜走 擦破我雙手
你不懂我的心 有時候真的好想不再回頭
放開所有 開始我一直沒辦法了 全也沒辦法走

曾經牽着你的手 還要甚麼要求
我只要退在你背後 總有一天我會成為你最好的朋友
無理取鬧也會忍受 現在同樣眼淚倒流

我不懂你的心 還要守到最後
就算愛情厭舊 從指縫溜走 擦破我雙手
你不懂我的心 有時候真的好想不再回頭
放開所有 可惜我一直沒辦法了 全也沒辦法走

想找一個理由 好讓我轉身就走
為甚麼這個時候才發現我與你也難受

我不懂你的心 還要守到最後
就算擁抱變舊 溫度已不夠 我一樣溫柔
你不懂我的心 嘗試過一千遍寫下很多理由
決定放手 可惜我一直沒辦法留 卻也沒辦法走



Saturday, September 27, 2008

I don't understand YOU



我不懂你 鍾嘉欣

作曲:Alex Lung 填詞:王仲傑
編曲:杜自持 監製:杜自持

事到如今 我學識接受 是你要自我與自由 這是你所有

*是我已獲得足夠 滿足你的要求 就求你別提及分手
 就我所知 終有日看懂情人方內疚 但是愛不全是佔有 誰會敷我的傷口*

從來不懂你嗎 為何尚要牽掛 但我不敢問話 未夠膽調查 你似未歸家
能留低一吻嗎 尤其是這十數月不知你在哪 還未曾化
講大話 還是真的無瑕 讓我知可以嗎

Repeat*

從來不懂你嗎 為何尚要牽掛 但我不敢問話 未夠膽調查 你似未歸家
能留低一吻嗎 尤其是這十數月不知你在哪 還未曾化
講大話 如果真的無瑕 沒法解釋嗎

從頭學習愛人 如何去守我本份 讓你知再會愛下去 這次是我可劫後重生

從前不懂你嗎 為何我覺可怕 但我不敢問話 未夠膽調查 我會否很差
能和好相處嗎 用自信心相信你便不會再害怕 還未明嗎
好情人 無非取得平衡 是我這方法嗎




Tuesday, September 23, 2008

Forgiveness can be difficult AND easy

Today I receive an email titling: Forgiveness can be difficult AND easy. It gives me a lot of reflection.

The word "forgive" definitely is not a easy word to learn. However, its the forgiveness that we receive from God that can encourage us to forgive without any bitterness. Should we enjoy the forgiveness from God, we should be able to find an easy way to forgive others.

With the email there is a song by 李克勤... and i would love to share with you too...!


醫道 李克勤 (醫道主題曲)

曲:杜自持 詞:李克勤/張美賢

受過傷 先知道要堅強
受委屈 先會學到原諒
明白到 醫者心腸 沒期望讚賞
幾多壯志幾多情長
幾多的考驗練我修養

失望過 失敗過 懲罰過使得我 不好過
幾十次 幾萬次 或會始終一次 得到過
若生活是個小山坡
感情如盛放花朵
但見花開太美
只可惜很少會結果
激動過 激勵過 誰或者都必須有折磨
只要我 知道我 無做錯都不會更改我
幸福從來我很清楚
不留神便擦身過
至少當中有我 最後仍然付上最多

受過傷 先知道要堅強
受委屈 先會學到原諒
明白到 醫者心腸 沒期望讚賞
儘管世界蜚短流長
天生的率性你會欣賞


Saturday, September 20, 2008

STOP!此路「得」通



8 months. After eight months of hardwork, finally it was successfully done last night.

Thanks God as there was so many things that happened during these eight months. So many ups and downs. But we finally go through.

It was miracle yesterday, as so many little errors, but God gave us the wisdom to jump over all those hurdles and deliver a wonder message together with pastoral short message and singspiration team.

Dear Lord, thank you for giving us the change to experience and learn. Amen.


Wednesday, September 10, 2008

MAM 2008

Three weeks, three trips, fifteen of us learn and experience from this year MAM.

I have upload some of the pictures to share with you about our trips. You can either go to my facebook or click the following link for them.

Niagara Falls 1/3
Niagara Falls 2/3
Niagara Falls 3/3
London 1/2
London 2/2
Sudbury

Lord, thank you...!


Thursday, September 04, 2008

I ruin it

I make some serious mistake.
Why I have to express my feelings when I know that it will turn out with silence?
It is definitely not other's fault, its me who know how to be good communication, but I ruin it.

I ruin it big.




Friday, August 01, 2008

Scripture Today

正如我經常講,神真是既可愛又可憎...
可憎的是他不會給你打開你的結局
可愛的是他一定會回答你的禱告

今日心情十分起伏,希望神給一些安慰,正值團契活動時有一環節是選經文。我跟神祈禱說,我不選啦,你給我甚麼就是甚麼啦。唉,神果然應允禱告。三節經文給我很大鼓勵。

順服: 悖逆的罪與行邪術的罪相等;頑梗的罪與拜虛神和偶像的罪相同。你既厭棄耶和華的命令,耶和華也厭棄你作王。(撒母耳記上15:23)

寬恕: 倘若這人與那人有嫌隙,總要彼此包容,彼此饒恕;主怎樣饒恕了你們,你們也要怎樣饒恕人。(歌羅西書3:13)

忍耐: 也要堅守我們所承認的指望,不至搖動,因為那應許我們的是信實的。(希伯來書10:23)

神啊...謝謝你...!


Thursday, July 31, 2008

Being Honest?

"同事三分親"今日講"坦白"。

人總是希望人人對他坦白。

可是為何人總是在對方坦白時,卻喜愛利用對方對他的坦白,甚至使用對方對他的坦白而傷害對他坦白的人???

"溏心風暴"中的阿歡就是一個很好的例子,連親生阿媽都利用他的坦白,唉...點解?!?!?!


Monday, July 28, 2008

Perseverance

持之以恆

花多少心機和工夫
就會得到多少的回報
是沒有捷徑的


Tuesday, July 22, 2008

Dear all, Thank you

Last week, during a memorial ceremony of AFC founder Rev. & Mrs. Stephen Knights, I was reminded of this song "Thank you" by Ray Boltz. This reminds me of those who help me and shape me during the past twenty years of my life. They were/are my examples, and their proverbs will forever be in my mind.

To those who are/were in Ottawa, thank you for teaching me while I was hurting you. Thank you for all Sunday school teachers, as that was when my Biblical foundation being laid. Thank you for all choir members, as you are those who give me a hand and lift me up while I was down due to mistakes.

To Rev. Nelson, thank you for being my turning point.

To Raymond, you know how much you mean to me... thank you...!

To all my friends in Toronto, thank you for walking with me when I am in needed.

To Rev. Barclay, thank you for being my teacher/mentor for my seminary years.

Of course, cannot appreciate more for what my parents had given me.

Without all your support, I will not be the Kelvin today.

THANK YOU...!




I dreamed I went to heaven
And you were there with me;
We walked upon the streets of gold
Beside the crystal sea.
We heard the angels singing
Then someone called your name.
We turned and saw a young man running
And he was smiling as he came.

And he said, "Friend you may not know me now."
And then he said, "But wait,
You used to teach my Sunday School
When I was only eight.
And every week you would say a prayer
Before the class would start.
And one day when you said that prayer,
I asked Jesus in my heart."

Thank you for giving to the Lord.
I am a life that was changed.
Thank you for giving to the Lord.
I am so glad you gave.

Then another man stood before you
And said, "Remember the time
A missionary came to your church
And his pictures made you cry.
You didn't have much money,
But you gave it anyway.
Jesus took the gift you gave
And that's why I'm here today."

Thank you for giving to the Lord.
I am a life that was changed.
Thank you for giving to the Lord.
I am so glad you gave.

One by one they came
Far as the eye could see.
Each life somehow touched
By your generosity.
Little things that you had done,
Sacrifices made,
Unnoticed on the earth
In heaven, now proclaimed.

And I know up in heaven
You're not supposed to cry
But I am almost sure
There were tears in your eyes.
As Jesus took your hand
And you stood before the Lord.
He said, "My child, look around you.
Great is your reward."

Thank you for giving to the Lord.
I am a life that was changed.
Thank you for giving to the Lord.
I am so glad you gave.

Thank you for giving to the Lord.
I am a life that was changed.
Thank you for giving to the Lord.
I am so glad you gave.


Friday, July 11, 2008

Sleepless in Toronto 神啊!求求讓我睡

Since coming back to Toronto, this is not the first night, not the second night, but the third consecutive night that I cannot put myself to sleep.

Its too excited. I can't put myself to rest.
The war is so intense that I don't know how can I stop myself.
The most wonderful is I don't know who am I fighting with, may be its myself that I am fighting against. I am just too aggressive.

My dear God, I know there is the strength you give me. I know there is your wisdom for me.

God, I know you are there hearing my prayer. Please, answer my prayer.



神啊!求求讓我睡 - 劉浩龍

作曲 : 徐繼宗
作詞 : 林若寧
編曲 : 王雙駿
監製 : 王雙駿

夜間新聞終結又報鐘
鬧鐘分針恐嚇我失眠
看著面前未拆開的DVD經典
壓力來自望出窗口失去了光線

凌晨的三點即將消失於黑洞
勉強地埋頭睡覺就更加失控
好比給一口蚊咬令我浮腫
顧及到要上工 然後我更驚恐
DJ們仍為那些舊情歌動容
聽得我就算數綿羊都很激進
讓我尖叫 讓我跳海 樣樣亦無大作用

神啊!求求讓我睡 請不要再打雷
神啊!求求讓我睡 否則叫我死去
跳下床 我在狂亂的追追追追
拳頭出手打碎堵牆 一口飲了七杯凍水
連續五天輾轉反側難睡覺
可否今天正常進睡 差點哭得出眼淚

勤勞的巴士司機都開始出動
我過份避免睡意漸次的飄進
此刻竟收到一個撥錯電話
要睡覺 有暗湧 頭亦重 眼都腫
七點時如像有些病人的倦容
彷彿我像個死人針拮都不痛
沒有知覺 沒有扎醒 望著大床做惡夢

神啊!求求讓我睡 請不要再打雷
神啊!求求讓我睡 否則叫我死去
跳下床 我在狂亂的追追追追
拳頭出手打碎堵牆 一口飲了七杯凍水
連夜四點輾轉反側難睡覺 好比深宵正常次序

神啊!求求讓我睡 頭髮亂了承受那旱天雷
神啊!求求讓我睡 難以睡去來自摑多一鎚
跳下床 我在無目的追追追追
原本身體筋竭力疲 思想經過一番榨取
晨霧散開終於身心疲倦了
啞忍七天至能進睡
天光休息都有罪




Monday, June 30, 2008

小小的誤差

法政先锋2內裡的一段:人的心理真的很奇怪,只不過是小小誤差,就可顛倒整個世界觀,反轉所有是非黑白甚至殺人放火,他們都會覺得自己沒有錯。

回想這幾天跟不同的人談起基督教時,無論是否基督徒,我們很多時間其實都是因為對神的看法出現小小的誤差,以致對神產生一些不必要的誤解。可以是天然災難,又或是人為變數,我們都可能因為對神的不了解,而在慒然不知的情況下,把所有的事情的責任都負面地歸咎於神的身上。為著這些的誤解,我們有時會讓我們的信心失落,有時會因此不返教會,甚至有時覺得神的存在跟本上不重要,遠離我們應有的信仰,以為自己才是對的,並沒有錯。

神啊,其實我們才是最錯的,求你原諒我們的無知和小信,若孩子有甚麼時候有意無意的把神你"擺上檯"時,求你原諒。


當你軟弱疲倦時

法政先锋2內裡的一段:

即使你是如何巾幗不讓鬚眉,但當妳軟弱疲累的時候,心裡的他總會浮現出來。當你憶起遠方的人,一切就好像黑咖啡一樣,似苦還甘。令人夜半低迴,難以忘記。

我現在內心的一段:

即使你講到你自己是堅強,但當你軟弱疲累的時候,心裡的"她"總會浮現出來。當你憶起正在遠方的人,一切就好像黑咖啡一樣,似苦還甘。令人夜半低迴,難以忘記,難以入眠。

我現在祈禱的一段:
神啊... "她"在哪裡?"她"現在安好嗎?


Monday, June 09, 2008

Prayers

Last night after Lament, I have a chance to talk to a couple, who are my long-time friends. We talked about praying to God.

Prayers are something really you want to have but at the same time, hate to have. The biggest problem/enjoyment is: God will always answer your prayer.
You pray, you will get the answer.

No question will be asked if prayer is being answer as the way we want to happen.

The question then becomes: Do I have the faith to take the answer which is against my desire? i.e. Hey God, I don't like your answer, what's the matter with you...!

This is what we called understanding and following God's will and plan. And...

This is the most difficult homework for us (at least me, hee hee...)

Dear all... Add Oil...!

PRAY...!!!


Monday, May 19, 2008

今天心情

今天心情:我心照明月,明月照溝渠

奈何為何我心明知明月照溝渠,我心依舊照明月??

Saturday, May 17, 2008

女孩們!勇敢說“NO!”

從去年尾到今天,打開報紙副刊,最熱門的八卦新聞,莫過於香港女星涉入「豔照門」事件。緣由一位陳姓男星及與他發生過親密關係之女子(包括女星、女模特兒......)的親密大膽照片,在網上流傳,沒想到涉及的女星居然有七八位以上,有些現今都已嫁為人妻或已為人母。這些照片引起軒然大波,不但對整個社會大眾,對女星個人之家庭名譽,以致前途都蒙上一層無法挪開的陰影。

看過這些報導,心中真是感歎萬分。真的,時代不同了,潮流趨向開放、大膽、前衛、新潮,所以许多走在時代尖端的女孩們,不問是非清白、善惡好壞,全部照單收,有樣學樣,唯恐跟不上潮流被人笑。結果,好事不出門,壞事傳千里,壞了自己的身軀、名譽、形象,何苦呀!值得嗎?

想起我們那時代父母管得可真嚴,上大學才可交男朋友,寫寫情書就很羅曼蒂克,不到很要好,小手都不可隨便給男生牽。衣服更是密實保守,女孩們個個爭著做大家閨秀或小家碧玉,羞答答文靜靜的。那時天天不是上課、補習、考試,回家就是溫書、做作業,偶爾聽聽收音機播放鄧麗君的柔美歌曲就很滿足了。日子也就過得平安踏實快樂。那時也沒聽過有什麼憂鬱症呢!

曾幾何時,西風東襲,女孩們打扮、衣著、言行皆仿隨好萊塢那些女星們,於是兩條帶子的內衣可裏衣外穿,內褲還要特意露一點讓人看到呢!更不要講露肩、露背、露腰,更何況這裏是熱帶地區,天熱嘛,名正言順愈穿愈少,愈穿愈短,當然也引出许多社會問題、亂象及影響。所以家中有正值十幾歲青春期兒女的父母,真應該多放點時間在自己的子女身上,多注意他們的言行舉止、交友、嗜好,多點時間來陪伴他們成長,聽聽他們的心聲,這樣的投資是值得,也是必要的。

有變有不變

我認為儘管時代在變,一切都在改變,但有些東西仍不可改變,如女孩子們對於自己的貞操、名節,該好好保護,絲毫不可隨便放鬆。雖不是做聖女,但至少要做到玉潔冰清、守身如玉。這樣做,不是為你的父母或其他人,其實是為你自己好。有人比喻女孩子的貞操如一根火柴,只能點燃一次,所以該保留到結婚後,獻給愛你的丈夫(其實男的亦然,不可美其名「博愛」而亂來的)。

在此次事件中,我們看到始作俑者的陳姓男星如此亂來,卻沒有像那些女明星們受到那麼大的批評、指摘及受抵制。當然,某女星以「那時太天真太傻」這句話來帶過一切的錯失,沒想到適得其,受到更多的批評嘲笑,其玉女形象蕩然無存,徹底破壞,且被網友譏為虛假。更甚者,其以往的廣告商、代言全部拒絕再以她做代言人。若只為貪一時的享樂而付上如此大的代價,真可謂是「損失慘重,得不償失」。所以女孩們,請三思,千萬別為愛情沖昏了頭,迷失了方向,將來後悔已為時太晚了。

安全的距離

其實現時代,男孩、女孩交交朋友,原無可厚非;但應限於大家在一起討論課業,看看電影,大夥一起去郊遊,在團體活動中要保持一定的距離。當感情更進一步,二人常單獨在一起時,就要小心了,千萬要注意--「保持距離,以策安全」。一切的親密舉止都要有個限度,並要理智,千萬別為愛情「勇敢」地獻上一切,該保留的還是要堅持,做個聰明理智的女孩。情到濃時,應勇敢地說“NO”,更能獲得男孩的尊重與珍惜,你說對嗎?

當然,我鼓勵年輕男女多參加教會的團契活動,按年齡可參加如少團、青團、初成。在教會團契裏,有牧者顧問們的教導聖經真理與人生哲理,有同輩契友們的友愛、關懷互動,有一些健康活潑生動的聚會節目,在主的「愛」中學習如何成長相處,將「愛」由自私的二人之「情愛」發揚為主耶穌基督對世人的「關愛」及捨身救人之「大愛」。並有一顆聖潔的身心靈,在言行舉止表現出一個年輕基督徒的誠實善良,聖潔公義,並積極正面的人生觀。充滿朝氣蓬勃,誰都想跟你做朋友,走到哪里都受歡迎,還怕找不到理想的另一半嗎?我相信神為你所預備的另一半,必是超乎你所想所求的。

還有,手機、電腦也要謹慎使用,它們本是幫助我們辦事快速的工具,千萬不要為了好奇或「眼目的情欲」而落入色情的陷阱,那會愈陷愈深無法自拔的。而且一顆善良清潔的心,也會慢慢受影響、污染,至終受到最大傷害的仍是你自己。聰明的女孩子對於不明的電話邀約或色情的電腦畫面也要勇敢地說“NO”。

其實我所說的,使徒保羅早在他的時代對女性有所教育:「我又願女人廉恥、自守,以正派衣裳為妝飾,不以編發、黃金珍珠,和貴價的衣裳為妝飾。只要善行,這與自稱是敬上帝的女人相宜。」(提前2:9-10)但願以此經文與年輕的女孩們共勉之!


資料來源:馬來西亞《衛理報》
http://www.gospelherald.com.hk/news/edi_437.htm

Friday, May 09, 2008

Elephant Paints Self Portrait

Well, if you BELIEVE... really almost everything is possible.

Tuesday, May 06, 2008

「心善則到處天堂」... 弟兄,天堂見...!

陶弟兄,今天之前我完全不認識你,但想不到一認識你的第一天,也是認識你的最後一天。

弟兄,知道你的消息,看過你的見證,實在是悲喜交雜,樂怒難分,既羨慕又妒忌。

悲 - 為你的離開而悲傷
喜 - 為你能早日與主同在而歡喜
樂 - 能於事工上被接天家實在是最大的福氣
怒 - 神啊! 為什麼?
羨慕 - 你可以為神付出你的生命
妒忌 - 你在這麼年輕神便不再讓你操勞,亦走得咁爽,唔駛痛

陶弟兄,你叫我想到我的前老板,同樣地,一下子就可以與神同在,真係好想步你地後塺。

弟兄,為你家人祈禱,希望他們能明白神的心意,不要太傷心,願神賜福他們。

Monday, May 05, 2008

好好戀愛?!



《好好戀愛》
主唱:王祖藍 / 彭家麗 
作曲 / 填詞:陳立怡 
編曲:John Laudon
© 音樂人製作有限公司 Music Man Productions Limited

(孩子)我的天父,可否讓我好好地談戀愛,
不再流淚,不再傷痛,不再聚合又要分開。
我的天父,我只想要安穩地找個人來愛,
請讓我知道那個人在不在。

(天父)我的孩子,難道你忘記了我就是愛,
學懂愛我,學懂愛你自己,你就懂好好戀愛。
我的孩子,何不嘗試安靜地慢慢去等待,
你就會知道那個人在不在。

(天父)你是否願意相信,每時每刻都在我手裏,
(孩子)願 意 相 信,   

(合)沒有事情是太早或是太遲。

(天父)願 意 相 信,
(孩子)愛我的主,我願意相信,萬事萬物都在祢手裏,

(天父)我教你順服,我的旨意。
(孩子)請教我順服,祢的旨意。

Sunday, May 04, 2008

Coach: that's all you have done...!

Price had a great job Saturday. DON'T BLAME HIM...! He did what he suppose to do, and do it more than everyone expected. Stopping Briere break away late in third period is the best proved. But your poor defence match up just give another turn over which cost us the series. "We want our goaltenders to be better." Is that what you blaming for...? Listen to the fan at Bell Centre, they have their full support on Carey... Coach, how about you?

Come on Coach... tell me why the opposite team will get that many easy shot...?
Where is your coaching when the team need the most?
Don't put the team on the spot when YOU are not doing the job...!
Horrible match up against the most physical team in the league... totally mismatch.
One of the league best defencemen this year, Roman Hamrlik who is doing a great job for the season, +7, is -3 in this game.
Coach, you are making one of the best teams in the league look stupid. Can't find their best, but showing all the weakness during the series.
Then, when losing, blaming the youngest, speechless, helpless goalie in the game for not doing his job...?
Covering your own mistakes by taking down others...
That is absolutely not acceptable.

Coach, its time to take your own responsibility. Don't ask other to take your responsibility when you are not doing your job...!


Wednesday, April 30, 2008

Poor Carey

See, be sure you know what you are doing when finger pointing. Price is the reason for the fall? Come on... obviously its not. Its bad coaching that making the Canadaians falling behind 3-1 today.

Stupid coach always kill his own team. Instead of faith building, he chose to make things more complicated when he hinted the bench of Price the other day. That not only not building up the sliding team, but also hurting the dynamic in the locker room. Everyone is giving praise to Price the other day, and the next day, he is the one to be blamed. Come on, give me a break.

Clearly, today, the team cannot play as a team. 0-4 for power play. Two bad goals by Halak. And the worse of all, bad coaching -- poor discipline -- stupid penalty by Begin. It cost the team a game.

Well, an other example of

Bad decision by coach --> bad game by the players --> lost

Carey Price ... Me

"He is twenty years old, you can't forget about that"
This is the world, if they don't believe in you, they won't... even with good performance.

Yeah, when Huet was being trade, I remember I wrote here "How can Montreal go to the final with Price alone"? Even as stupid as me will ask that question. Once the move is make, the only thing what we can do is: support him as much as you can, build his confidence and forget what your doubt is.

But now, the fans, the media, the coach, the management is having all their pressure and critics on Price just because he lost back to back games to Philadephia. Come on, you know it from the beginning when the trade took place. And now, you are blaming him because "He is 20-years old"? If you don't believe in him, don't do/say anything seems like you are believing in him at the beginning. This sucks...!

Why everyone is forgetting that in the Boston series, he had been in that situation already... losing two in a row. What is the response from Price? Giving you a nice shut out on Game 7. Yes, Game 7, the most important game, life or death. He can survive in this life or death situation, why can't you believe that Price can carry you thru this time again...? Shame on you people...!

And, don't forget, there are also Montreal forwards and defences in the team. We win as a team and lose as a team. Not the goalie. This is the world. They never appreciate what you have done for them. They only make you look worse when you are down. Sigh...

Carey... I believe that you can do a great job and lead our Canadians to the best. Go Carey Go...!

Tuesday, April 29, 2008

沉思

盧雲的沉思

你依然在掙扎,希望看見自己的真相。那些清楚明白你的心、真誠愛護你的人告訴你:你是神的兒女;祂已經進入你的深處;並且你很多時候也將由神得來的,與其他人分享。當你聽到這些說話時,你視之為只不過是鼓勵的話。你並不相信這些人所記得一切就是他們親眼看見的。

你必需學像你這些真心朋友般看自己。若你一直對自己的真相視而不見,會繼續把自己比下去,覺得任何一個人都比你更好、更聖潔、更值得被愛。你仰視所有人,在他們裏面看見善良、美麗和愛,因為你不能在自己身上看見這些素質。結果,你開始依附其他人,而無法認識到你擁有自力更新所需的一切。

然而,你是無法勉強事情發生的。你沒可能把自己模造成其他人眼中的那個人。假如你某些部份依然剛愎自用,你便無法完全肯定你自己。你需要承認你在何處,確定那個地方。你必需願意在你的寂寞、你的缺憾、你未能完全的道成肉身中無懼地生活,且相信神會差遣某些人來,不斷向你展示你是誰這個真相。


宗仔的沉思

我依然在掙扎,不希望看見自己的真相。那些清楚明白我的心、真誠愛護我的人告訴我:你是神的兒女;祂已經進入你的深處;並且給予你最好的。當我聽到這些說話時,我視之為只不過是鼓勵的話。我並不相信這些人所看見的一切就是他們親眼看見的圖畫的全部。

可能我必需學像我這些真心朋友般看自己。若我一直對自己的真相堅持下去,會繼續讓自己比下去,覺得任何一個人都比我更好、更聖潔、更值得被愛。我身邊所有人,在他們眼裏面看見我的善良、美麗和愛,可是我卻不能在自己身上看見這些素質。結果,我開始不信任其他人,而更加無法明白到自己所需的一切。

然而,我是無法勉強事情發生的。我沒可能把自己模造成他眼中的那個人。假如他某些部份依然剛愎自用,他便更加無法完全肯定我自己。他需要承認我在何處,確定那個地方。我並不願意在寂寞、缺憾中生活,我固且相信神會差遣某些人來,不斷向他展示我是誰這個真相。


宗仔的祈禱

神啊!我要承認人家對我的批評,叫我明白我的真相。然而,神啊,求你也叫我能積極地覺得自己是比得上他人的。

世上之最

甚麼是世上最難捉摸的?
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沉默

Friday, April 25, 2008

等...真的會有結果嗎?

當我在看<白色巨塔>時,看到蘇怡華可以用十幾年的時間去等一個明知是在背叛他、另有男人的女人,最後比佢等到。而家先得十幾集,我唔知後面係點,起碼比佢等到。

我係到反思自己,為甚麼我會等一個只會我背叛他、而佢永遠等我的神的一個答案時我會咁辛苦。
一方面我會同神投訴,到現在我已經等佢一個答案等了七年,到而家都仲係得個等字。
但係另一方面,我又會去這樣想:神由我三歲懂性開始都等到我這個不肖子十五年才願意回頭是岸;再加多十幾年時間的艱辛教導,才等到這個忤逆仔可以出黎講幾句「神話」,為神的國度做個少少野。真係有些少慚愧,好對唔住呢個對我咁好的神。

唉... 等、唔等、等、唔等、等、唔等、等、唔等、等、唔等、等、唔等、等、唔等... 真係好掙扎...!

本來今朝想到這個時,話緊比自己聽,要對神有信心,不可辜負神對你的一番栽培。
但係下午就收到"THE EMAIL"... 唉...好唔開心。

唉...神啊! 「等」真係知易行難...!





Wednesday, April 23, 2008

Gym again...

After almost three months lack of exercise, I finally get back to exercise today. Although I am not yet fully recovered, and did not really do much except walking... Well, at least got some sweat out... :P




Tuesday, April 15, 2008

Its gone. Finally.

AFC Gospel Book House finally gone. Wednesday, it will change to a Chinese school.

What a change.

What a way to say goodbye.

What a sad mode.

You will always on my mind... you will always on my mind!


Monday, April 14, 2008

Blog Again

最近很少寫Blog。 其實唔係無事發生,只不過唔知點寫。

直到今天早上,聽到這首歌,好想分享。

特別是妳和你...!


名稱:鍾無艷
歌手:謝安琪
作曲:Christopher Chak
填詞:林夕
編曲:陳珀
監製:梁榮駿
(C) 2007 Cinepoly Records Co. Ltd.

其實我怕你總誇獎高估我堅忍
其實更怕你只懂得欣賞我品行
無人及我用字絕重拾了你信心
無人問我可甘心演這偉大 化身
其實我想間中崩潰脆弱如戀人
垂在你兩臂中低得不需要身份

無奈被你識穿這個念頭 得到好處的你  
明示不想失去絕世好友

沒有得你的允許 我都會愛下去
互相祝福心軟之際或者准我吻下去
我痛恨成熟到 不要你望著我流淚
但漂亮笑下去 彷彿冬天飲雪水
被你一貫的讚許 卻不配愛下去
在你悲傷一刻必須解慰找到我樂趣
我甘於當副車 也是快樂著唏噓
彼此這麼了解
難怪註定似兄妹一對

其實我怕你的好感基於我修養
其實最怕你的私心窺准我體諒
無人問我寂寞盡頭何處去養傷
原來是我的心境高到變為 偶像
誰情願照耀著別人就如 月亮
為奴婢為你備飯奉茶是殘忍真相

無奈被你識穿這個念頭 得到好處的你  
明示不想失去絕世好友

沒有得你的允許 我都會愛下去
互相祝福心軟之際或者准我吻下去
我痛恨成熟到 不要你望著我流淚
但漂亮笑下去 彷彿冬天飲雪水
被你一貫的讚許 卻不配愛下去
在你悲傷一刻必須解慰找到我樂趣
我甘於當副車 也是快樂著唏噓
彼此這麼了解

讓我決定我的快樂
那須得你的允許 我都會愛下去
互相祝福心軟之際或者准我吻下去
我痛恨成熟到 不要你望著我流淚
但漂亮笑下去 彷彿冬天飲雪水
被你一貫的讚許 無需再說下去
在你悲傷一刻必須解慰找到我樂趣
我甘於當副車 卻沒法撞入堡壘
彼此這麼了解  難怪註定似兄妹一對

你的他怎允許  結伴觀賞雪的淚
永不開封的汽水 讓我抱在懷內吻下去







Saturday, March 22, 2008

Trust in Him

John 14:1
Let not your hearts be troubled. Believe in God; believe also in me.

There are a lot of things that trouble my heart lately. My car accident, my job, my relationship with people around me, my finance... etc. Seems like troubles just never end.

Today thru the scripture, God seems agreeing with me. "Yes, troubles will never end." But He added: "Just don't let all these troubles to disturb your heart. Believe is the word. Just believe in God; and believe also in Jesus Christ." If I believe, all things will not be troubled.

God, thank you for your encouragement, but I also need you to help me to keep on with this attitude.

Tuesday, March 18, 2008

Q&A

Last night, something happened. This made me very upset, unhappy and frustrated.

I asked God, why you put me in this position? As a pastor, I should have handled these situation very easy and sound. But why, while I am teaching others to do well, I am doing no good but towards negative on this matter? God, just bail me out from this. I want out.

During this morning drive to AFC, I am still questioning God. How long do you want me in this situation? At the same time, I would like to use my own method to solve it.

But God calm me down 15 minutes after. During AFC prayer meeting, songs came up and nothing but encouragement. Seems like God is answering me.

In His Time
Open Our Eyes Lord
You are my All in All

Sigh, yes, I am just not patience enough to understand and wait for His timing. I should have opened up my eyes, seeing how many grace God have already given to me. Why bother to worry about the difficulties I am having? Just remember that God is my all in all.

Lord, please give me strength...

昨晚,一些東西發生。這事令我十分不安,不快樂和受挫。

我問神,為什麼你把我放在這個處境之中?身為一個傳道人,理應我很懂我處理這些事情。但是為什麼,當我一方面教導年青人怎樣處理之時,我卻在這事之中陷入苦戰之內。神呀,救救我脫離這種困局。

在今天早上期間開車去 AFC之時,我還在向神詢問。你還想要我在這個處境中多久? 同時我在想,不如用我的自己的方法去解決它。

但是神在15分鐘後把我帶回平靜。在AFC祈禱會之中,神好像以詩歌回答我、鼓勵我。神呀,對不起,我明白有一些事情是不能用我的心思去明白內裡的因由。可是,我卻根本沒有耐心去瞭解和等侯。我應該張開我的眼睛,看見神已經給了我多少的恩典,為什麼我還擔心我現有的困難和麻煩呢?我應謹記神才是我的所有。

神呀,求你賜給我力量去面對...!


Friday, March 14, 2008

電視劇對白隨想Share

電視劇對白隨想Share
2:03am Friday, Mar 14
今日睇電視劇聽到以下嘅對白,覺得幾有意思:

「我返咗幾日工已經咁攰,真唔敢想像上帝做人嘅時候有幾攰......人生係一齣齣戲,每個人都依住自己嘅劇本去做,直到最後一頁......上帝呢個多產嘅劇作家可謂創意無限,每個人都有一個唔同嘅劇本,最難得嘅係佢唔會重覆佢自己...」

嚴格嚟講,你可以挑剔中間有啲唔係最合乎神學思想,但係如果我哋寬容啲去睇,加少少感性,都可以有少少嘢諗吓嘅...

By Kitty Leung
Original Post: http://www.facebook.com/note.php?note_id=11825379923&id=620215836&ref=share


Thursday, March 13, 2008

"賭場風雲"反省篇之真心

喬正初教玩Showhand時,不可讓人看穿你的底牌,勸張來富要從生活中學習這個道理。

我在想,作為一個基督徒,能否做到既對人真時,又可以不讓人看穿你的底牌??




Wednesday, March 05, 2008

Thanksgiving Day

First of all, I have to thank all of you who give me caring and encouragement after knowing of my accident today. Really appreciate.

Here is the accident this morning. I went to pick up my colleage for TCEMF (Toronto Ministrial Fellowship). When I drive out of her side street for less than 30 seconds, there was a car on the opposite lane missed the curve of the road and slipped while braking and slammed into the driver side of my car.

As you can see in the photos (click here), the driver's doors are badly damaged. Hopefully the middle pillar of the car is ok, otherwise... sigh...

Thanks to the Lord is that it did not hit my car split second earlier, otherwise, it may go deeper into the driver door and I might have been injured by then. Now, so fortunately that nobody in both cars are hurt. Praise the Lord.

Now my baby is in hospital and waiting for the doctor to see what exactly is happening to her and... sigh...

Well, God let it happens and there must be a reason for it.




Tuesday, March 04, 2008

Monday, March 03, 2008

Last word on Panama Mission Feb 08

Dear partners,

After a 12-hours journey, I was safely back to my home sweet home. Despite of a little bumpy landing in Newark airport, the rides are fine. Although it does not as horrible as in Germany, the turbulence did create some emotional-excited moments. Everyone clapped their hands when we landed. In addition to the safe leading in the first leg, it also brought me some inspiration from the movie "Mr. Magorium's Wonder Emporium”. You can see more about the movie by going http://www.magorium.com.

"Believe" is the word for the movie. You believe it or you don’t. It’s all your call for the magic. It will only be there if you believe in it. Just like the gifts of God for us to serve. “Believe” is the magic word. If you believe that God is giving you the gift to serve, just go ahead and serve, otherwise, you will just lose the chance to find that out yourself.

Well, I just experienced that on the second leg of my flight. I bump into the chance to speaking to “my neighbour” Ali, who is a Muslim from Pakistan, and a business man who immigrated to Toronto ten years ago. During our conversation, we discuss the “man named Jesus” in Christianity and Islam. I have the chance to better know about how Islam see about it. To be honest, I try to avoid speaking to him for the first few moments. But I am glad that I didn’t, as we finally not only exchange our religious views, but also the views of business. Thanks God for giving me the opportunity to hear more and know more.

Hereby I would like to give thanks to all the brothers and sisters in Panama who have helped me throughout this month. Thank you for your hospitality, and also your time to take me here and there. Also, thank you for your meals and sharing. Although I cannot have a concrete date of seeing you again, hopefully it won’t be too long.

Finally, but not least, I have to thank you all for your prayers. Without your prayer backup and encouragements, I don’t think I can quickly rebound from my sudden spiritual downfall during the trip. Of course, God is the one who’s leading the way, but He uses you to cast His blessing upon me. Thank you all. My dear Lord, thank you.

Please visit www.xteam.ca for my future updates.
May God bless you…

Your partner in Christ,
Kelvin



Friday, February 29, 2008

Better day

Thanks to the Lord because it is a good day Thursday...

Rev. and Mrs. Lu are with me in the visitation today. We visit two sisters whose family did not attend church for a while. Both of them is having a business and very difficult to attend church Sunday. However, one of them show interest in going to the "couple fellowship". Pray that they will attend the fellowship this sunday.

Then we visit a young guy who was once a Christian attending church. Now he is planning to buy a new business. May God bless him so that he can find a business which allows him to go to fellowship and worship on the weekend. He promises to go to the youth fellowship this Saturday.

After lunch we spend the afternoon visit the parents of a youth here. It is a very wonderful chat there. We even will go Chinese Tea this Saturday...! PTL...!

It is also a blessing that after the training tonight, we have an extended session. The reason is that during the session we found out that some of the youth here did not have a clear concept of some Bible regarding revelation. Thanks God to give us this opportunity to help them clarify. Although it make it a late night, its good. Lord, thank you.

Please pray for Friday as I will have breakfast with an uncle and then a chat with a youth. Also it will be a last training session and please keep praying for the strength of the youth so that they can keep digesting...

Thank you for your prayer.



Thursday, February 28, 2008

God answering...

Is that God answering my prayer or its just coincidence?

I pray to God last night, and ask for support as I am feeling lonely and weak. One important thing in my prayer is I feel I am not doing well in listening to God and worry that I am getting wrong message from God and doing the wrong thing.

Immediately I received emails and fb messages of encouragement. Dear friends, thank you!

But, the most unbelievable thing happened this morning.

Before I get out of bed, I decided to have my desktop gadget scripture for my devotion. You know what, the scripture for today is from Luke 10:19

我已經給你們權柄可以踐踏蛇和蠍子,又勝過仇敵一切的能力,斷沒有什麼能害你們。
Behold, I have given you authority to tread on serpents and scorpions, and over all the power of the enemy, and nothing shall hurt you.


This verse speaks directly into my heart. Almost without any thinking process, no interpretation, and does not need to worry if this voice is from God or not. It must be from God and God alone.

God, sometimes you really making me hate you while loving you at the same time. The speed of you answer to my prayer is just like that quick. Not even one moment for me to have an excuse to wandering around. And... your answer is just that precise.

Who should I afraid of? Satan? What I am doing now is being ordered from my almighty God. And what I am sharing is from nobody but is the word of God. Why should I worry? Why should I worry if I can fight the battle? God if you already given me the opportunity to share your word, and you giving me to authority to tread on serpents and scorpions, why should I still fear towards the power of my enemy?

If I believe that God is my protection, why do I afraid that Satan will hurt me? Psalm 18 suddenly comes up to my mind:

Psa 18:1-3 耶和華,我的力量啊,我愛你!耶和華是我的巖石,我的山寨,我的救主,我的神,我的磐石,我所投靠的。他是我的盾牌,是拯救我的角,是我的高臺。我要求告當讚美的耶和華;這樣我必從仇敵手中被救出來。
Psa 18:1-3 He said: I love you, O LORD, my strength. The LORD is my rock and my fortress and my deliverer, my God, my rock, in whom I take refuge, my shield, and the horn of my salvation, my stronghold. I call upon the LORD, who is worthy to be praised, and I am saved from my enemies.


Dear Lord, Thankyou for your reconfirmation.

And you know what? I believe that its is not coincident. When I turn on facebook, todays daily verse just like ecohing my thoughts.

The first one is from Titus 1:7-9
監督既是神的管家,必須無可指責,不任性,不暴躁,不因酒滋事,不打人,不貪無義之財。樂意接待遠人,好善,莊重,公平,聖潔自持。堅守所教真實的道理,就能將純正的教訓勸化人,又能把爭辯的人駁倒了。
For an overseer, as God's steward, must be above reproach. He must not be arrogant or quick-tempered or a drunkard or violent or greedy for gain, but hospitable, a lover of good, self-controlled, upright, holy, and disciplined. He must hold firm to the trustworthy word as taught, so that he may be able to give instruction in sound doctrine and also to rebuke those who contradict it.


Here God seems like is reminding me that the only thing I should worry is that if I have the discipline that I should have as a God's steward. As long as I am firm on His Word and to give instruction on them with the correct doctrine, I am doing my job assigned by God. That will be more important than to worry about the power of Satan.

And the last but not least, the second Bible verse from Facebook is from Matthew 16:13-16

When Jesus came to the region of Caesarea Philippi, he asked his disciples, "Who do people say the Son of Man is?" They replied, "Some say John the Baptist; others say Elijah; and still others, Jeremiah or one of the prophets." "But what about you?" he asked. "Who do you say I am?" Simon Peter answered, "You are the Christ, the Son of the living God."
耶穌到了該撒利亞腓立比的境內,就問門徒說:「人說我(有古卷沒有我字),人子是誰?」他們說:「有人說是施洗的約翰;有人說是以利亞;又有人說是耶利米或是先知裡的一位。」耶穌說:「你們說我是誰?」西門彼得回答說:「你是基督,是永生神的兒子。」


This is like a challenge to me from God. "Kelvin, do you really believe in me? Who do you think I am?" Yes, God, I believe in you and I believe that you are the Christ, Son of the Living God. Sorry God, I should not have hesitation, and please forgive me for the lack of faith in you. Dear Lord, thank you for your word and encouragement.

Dear friends and partners, please keep praying for me in this spiritual battle.


Wednesday, February 27, 2008

Prayer Request...!

After a night of quiet time and reflection, I am pretty sure that I can assume that all those unhappiness during this mission trip was due to my lack of confidence and faith in God.

Satan is using every bit of my lack of self-confidence to charge me, also using my emotions to create un-patience in my heart, and even using a little camera to create frustration within my mind...

So, please pray for me. As we are reaching the last two nights of training, and another sharing during saturday fellowship. I will also pay visitation to couple families and youth.

Please pray for my confident so that I won't be lack of confident. Also, please pray for my faith in God so that emotions won't kill my heart of spreading His gospel. In addition, please also pray for His protection so that all training and visitations will be used so that all brothers and sisters can be benefit from the experience.

God, please be with me...!


broken camera screen

Very not happy today...

My newly camera is not new anymore. Suddenly, with no idea why, the screen was without the upper half. I swear I have done nothing to it as it was always in my pocket. Sigh... What should I do now...?

My new baby... :(


Tuesday, February 26, 2008

Player isn't required to fix team's errors, this is up to the managers

Player isn't required to fix team's errors
Dave Perkins

Original post from TheStar.com article 306777

Once again, the lesson has been delivered to Toronto, if not learned.

The player's job, in any sport, is to play. The player's job is not to help manage the team or to massage payroll. That is up to the managers.

The Maple Leafs, operating as usual at full blunder, have handled the Mats Sundin question poorly from the start right through the finish that everyone – particularly Sundin – hopes arrived Sunday.

The Leafs didn't learn a single thing from history and Cliff Fletcher surely should have known better than to hang a class act like Sundin out to dry the way they did. This surely wouldn't have been Fletcher's intent, but it's the result.

Less than four years ago, the same thing happened with Carlos Delgado, when the still-newish general manager of the Blue Jays, J.P. Ricciardi, assumed that Delgado, making an unwieldy $18.5 million (U.S.) in the final year of his contract, would give up his rights to veto a trade to a contender, which the Jays surely were not.

Ricciardi probably made a mistake of inexperience, publicly heaping responsibility on Delgado to forgo his right to live up to his end of a contract negotiated in good faith. Ricciardi wanted Delgado to facilitate his own departure as the first step in remaking the Jays in a different and cheaper manner and assumed he would take the chance to seek a ring elsewhere.

Delgado, who did not appreciate being hung out like that, said no. The betting here is that Ricciardi, older and wiser, will handle things differently if the situation arises again with a megastar.

That said, Fletcher knows his way around the block. He shouldn't have made the same mistake, which is publicly setting up the long-time captain to take heat, much of it undeserved and most of it based on the fact that he happened to be born in Sweden.

Sundin was forced into a no-win position and Fletcher, who was brought here to hit a home run at today's trading deadline, now would be happy to bloop in a double somewhere.

It's typical of the Maple Leafs, though, isn't it? Other than making money, can they do anything right? (And even there, how many millions do they leave on the table every year now by constantly mismanaging the brand's chief asset.)

No doubt Fletcher walked into a tough spot by taking over an underperforming hockey team hamstrung by a number of no-trade clauses. It's fashionable to blame the departed John Ferguson Jr. for handing out those contracts, but Ferguson did so in every case with the board of directors approving and presumably endorsing each move with their collective hockey acumen.

Now, the common response is the opposite: Fletcher and his successor (the lucky fellow) are being encouraged to grant no more no-trade security to any future Leafs. This, then, all but assures Sundin's time in Toronto expires in 18 games. Last summer, after taking his time to reach a decision, he chose to sign a one-year contract with the no-trade clause. So how is it possible that he could sign another contract this summer without one? If he sought it at age 36, he'll need it at age 37 – and so on.

Sundin, a good soldier for this club, on and off the ice, for a long time, deserves to finish his Leafs career as gracefully as possible. The club negotiated and signed a contract – a contract it now needs to honour – without having a gun put to its head. Yet it turned around and put one ever so publicly to Sundin's.

NHL Trading Deadline Day

Disappointment...! That is the only word that I can think about when I see the transactions by Canadian teams on the last trading day. Not because of the lack of big trades... but its the non-sense and non-aggresiveness of the team movement in the eye of a stupid Canadian hockey fan.

Ottawa, is already the best of all adding another winger who know how to score. Vancouver, even with the lack of good forwards and penalty killer, giving up Matt Cooke for another Matt, Matt Pettinger who has only 7 points for the year.

Montreal Canadians, is making no sense at all... giving up Huet for what? A 2009 draft-pick (yes, not 2008, but 2009...!) Yes, he is at the end of the contract, but what we are losing? Don't tell me that we are hoping the match of Price-Halak can keep the pucks out of the net during the playoff runs and bring our Canadians to the Stanley Cup final. You must be kidding me. Even if Huet is not coming back, we only losing a goal-tender who those GM thinks only worth a 2nd round draft pick one year later. But now, we are losing the hope of going for the Cup... come on...!

My lovely Tronoto Maple Leafs. I do not have high expectations, or i should say i am having the biggest worry when Cliff Fletcher become our GM. Not to mention that we are only six points out of the last playoff spot with almost 20 games left, and we still have Sundin, Tucker, Tomas Kaberle, McCabe, and others who comes back with a healthy body, why do we have to be a seller and shipped away Gill and Kilger?

Let's look at Washington, who is only one point in front of our Leafs, see what have they done on the very same day? Adding Cristobal Huet, Sergei Fedorov, Matt Cooke and Alex Giroux almost without giving up anything, but some fourth-liners and a 2009 2nd-round draft pick.

Gill, we still have a year on him, and Kilger, who has the most improvement among all leafs in the past few years, should be something we need for the playoff run. Although we are getting some 2nd/3rd rounders coming up, but are we really ok to just looking into futre?

Are we already giving up our hopes or Cliff, you believe that we already have enough to go for a last run for the playoff...? Although I do not like the deals you have make before, but i still have hope that you know what is the best for the team. Cliff, hopefully you are making the right choice. Btw, Wade, welcome back next year...!

GO LEAFS GO...!!!

Monday, February 25, 2008

Peaceful Monday

After a "busy" Sunday, here is the peaceful Monday when I take the whole day rest and recharge with a nice meal at the seashore with Pastor Wilson. We also take a walk at the harbour front where the warm sea wind give me some refresh feelings.

















Tomorrow will start another series of training, may God bless the youth so that they won't be bored by me... :P



Sunday, February 24, 2008

Memorable Sunday

This afternoon I attend the 6th Anniversary Service of Iglesia Evangelica China de Arraijan. It is something worth for celebration...! From nobody to almost 20 families in the church, it is not an easy job for the Panama workers. You can click here to see some pictures of it.

At night, I am very honor to be part of the birthday party. This is the first time I ever listen to Spanish karaoke. It was fun. Click here to share our memorable nite. If you have facebook, Click here to see some video clips.

I really appreciate the caring effort from the brothers and sisters here in Panama. This group was too busy serving in the church especially taking care of the youngster and they do not have a real fellowship for themselves. Their sacrifice is very honorable. Not only this, despite of the lack of time to gather around, they share deeply whenever they can group together. This kind of friendship is very precious. God, please protect them from the attack of Satan. May you bless them so that they can be friends forever...


Friday, February 22, 2008

Campamento Juvenil 2008 Photos

Campamento Juvenil 2008 - Opening
Campamento Juvenil 2008 - Groups
Campamento Juvenil 2008 - Main Message
Campamento Juvenil 2008 - Talent Night
Campamento Juvenil 2008 - Workshops
Campamento Juvenil 2008 - Games and Activities
Campamento Juvenil 2008 - Camp Fire 1
Campamento Juvenil 2008 - Camp Fire 2
Campamento Juvenil 2008 - Misc
Campamento Juvenil 2008 - Closing 1
Campamento Juvenil 2008 - Closing 2

Updates

Tonight will be the last nite of the week-long training. For the past few nights, I have been having training with the youth fellowship on retreats/camps. Please pray for them, as most of them do not have any experience on camps/retreats, and some of them will have their first try in organizing a camp for their national holiday in November.

Next week, they will be in another week of training (yes, another…!) in spiritual growth. It will be another tough week for them, as they will have a lot to digest from the month-long training. Please keep praying for them.



 

Thursday, February 21, 2008

Total Eclipse of My Heart…!

On Wednesday night, it's a off-night for training. And… it's the only moon eclipse in three years, so of course, we will not miss this chance.

We enjoy the moon eclipse on the roof of the apartment, how wonderful the view is…



Click here to see other pictures of it…



During the eclipse, the only thing in my mind… the song "Total Eclipse of My Heart"



"Total Eclipse of the Heart" written by Jim Steinman

Turnaround, Every now and then I get a little bit lonely and you're never coming round
Turnaround, Every now and then I get a little bit tired of listening to the sound of my tears
Turnaround, Every now and then I get a little bit nervous that the best of all the years have gone by
Turnaround, Every now and then I get a little bit terrified and then I see the look in your eyes
Turnaround bright eyes, Every now and then I fall apart
Turnaround bright eyes, Every now and then I fall apart

Turnaround, Every now and then I get a little bit restless and I dream of something wild
Turnaround, Every now and then I get a little bit helpless and I'm lying like a child in your arms
Turnaround, Every now and then I get a little bit angry and I know I've got to get out and cry
Turnaround, Every now and then I get a little bit terrified but then I see the look in your eyes
Turnaround bright eyes, Every now and then I fall apart
Turnaround bright eyes, Every now and then I fall apart

And I need you now tonight
And I need you more than ever
And if you only hold me tight
We'll be holding on forever
And we'll only be making it right
Cause we'll never be wrong together
We can take it to the end of the line
Your love is like a shadow on me all of the time
I don't know what to do and I'm always in the dark
We're living in a powder keg and giving off sparks
I really need you tonight
Forever's gonna start tonight
Forever's gonna start tonight

Once upon a time I was falling in love
But now I'm only falling apart
There's nothing I can do
A total eclipse of the heart
Once upon a time there was light in my life
But now there's only love in the dark
Nothing I can say
A total eclipse of the heart

INSTRUMENTAL

Turnaround bright eyes
Turnaround bright eyes
Turnaround, Every now and then I know you'll never be the boy you always wanted to be
Turnaround, Every now then I know you'll always be the only boy who wanted me the way that I am
Turnaround, Every now and then I know there's no one in the universe as magical and wonderous as you
Turnaround, Every now and then I know there's nothing any better and there's nothing that I just wouldn't do
Turnaround bright eyes, Every now and then I fall apart
Turnaround bright eyes, Every now and then I fall apart

And I need you now tonight
And I need you more than ever
And if you'll only hold me tight
We'll be holding on forever
And we'll only be making it right
Cause we'll never be wrong together
We can take it to the end of the line
Your love is like a shadow on me all of the time
I don't know what to do and I'm always in the dark
We're living in a powder keg and giving off sparks
I really need you tonight
Forever's gonna start tonight
Forever's gonna start tonight

Once upon a time I was falling in love
But now I'm only falling apart
Nothing I can do
A total eclipse of the heart
Once upon a time there was light in my life
But now there's only love in the dark
Nothing I can say
A total eclipse of the heart


1982 Lost Boys Music




Monday, February 18, 2008

Campamento Juvenil 2008

This year Panama Summer Camp was wonderful. 115 youth attended the "Salvation-Color" filled campsite to enjoy their week and hopefully make changes in their lives. Our theme is 超越奧運. We used the five colors of salvation to decorate the whole campsite so that all the counsellors and leaders will have a hands-on material for gospel anytime, anywhere.

Thanks to the Lord, throughout the week, among the 46 non-Christians attending the camp, 35 of them converted. 46 youth willing to dedicate their life to God, while another 10 campers willing to serve God full-time if God's calling is upon them including 1 STM member. Praise the Lord…!

After the camp, more than 50 of the youth campers attend the church the following Sunday, with many of them are the first-timer. PTL…!

Please keep praying for the youth, as some of them are still in the search of God, while the others may not have the chance to attend church regularly. Also, please pray for the church leaders so that they have the time, resources and effort so that they can follow them up.




Photos

Campamento Juvenil 2008 - Opening
Campamento Juvenil 2008 - Groups
Campamento Juvenil 2008 - Main Message
Campamento Juvenil 2008 - Talent Night
Campamento Juvenil 2008 - Workshops
Campamento Juvenil 2008 - Games and Activities
Campamento Juvenil 2008 - Camp Fire 1
Campamento Juvenil 2008 - Camp Fire 2
Campamento Juvenil 2008 - Misc
Campamento Juvenil 2008 - Closing 1
Campamento Juvenil 2008 - Closing 2


Monday, February 11, 2008

Camp Preparation

Finally we came to the last preparation for the camp. So many b/s stay together to have the final touch of registration, decoration, a/v and other stuffs...

Please pray for us as we have around 95 students going now. Please also pray for those helping out with the kitchen/food, as we have close to 140 people altogether in the camp, it will not be an easy job.

You can click here to see some of our prep work.


Friday, February 08, 2008

David City Mission

Mission Failed...!

Due to the wrong estimation to the number of people and fail to understand their situation, with the addition of language barrier, my mission to David City can be described as a total failure. Not only that the games I have was not able to entertain them, the mood seems to be ruined. Frankly saying, I think the interpretor has done a much better job to cover me up, thank you Shirley. However, despite the fact that I may have done a bad job this time, it is a big learning for me, but with a big cost to the church and the people there... :(

Retreat Photos


However, with the brotherly love of the b/s in David City, they comfort me by giving me two big entertainment instead: Swimming in the river and having lamb-chop hotpot...! God, thank you, I don't think I deserved.

Photos


Firstly, they bring me to a little river stream where the water is so clear that i can clearly see the fish at the bottom of the river... WOW...! With the cold water, it really relax my tiredness and enjoying the water bath a lot. Not to mention that they have a riverside BBQ with some tastful spicy susages. Wonderful...!

Then we have a 90 minutes ride up the hill and enjoy my first fresh lamb hotpot. It was fantastic...! The lamb really make you warmer... at least I don't feel the bus that cold when I ride back to Panama City... :P Brothers and sisters... thank you for your food and patience to forgive my mistakes...THANK YOU...!


Thursday, February 07, 2008

Chinese New Year Fair

The first day of Panama I was fortunate to attend the Chinese New Year Fair of Panama. So many people there and surprisingly there are also half of the attendance are Panamanian...!

Click the picture to see the photos of the fair :P

They have the lion dance from China...
If you have facebook, click here to see the clip...!

and there is a car show for Chinese car...!

Click the picture for the album of the auto show.

After the fair, so glad that I was celebrating the end year with some brothers and sisters with a wonderful meal… I really mean wonderful… we have “Deep Sea Crab”… Yummy…!


Wednesday, February 06, 2008

Panama Mission Trip

Dear partners,

Thank you for your prayer support. Despite a 2-hour delay for my flight to Newark, I had a safe landing in Panama last night around 11pm. It’s a bit tired, but I have a long rest last night, thanks to the warm welcome by pastor Wilson. It will be a rest day for me today before heading to David City by midnite bus tonight.

Here is my schedule for my Panama trip, please keep me in your prayer.

My main activities:
1. Helping out with the Chinese New Year Evangelistic Meeting at David, Chiriqui
2. Sharing with youth/young career fellowship
3. Panama Summer Youth camp
4. Help the fellowship to set up and prepare for an upcoming Chinese camp
5. Help the first and second generation (PBC) in their Christian growing

Schedule

Wednesday, Feb 6th - Friday, Feb 8th - David, Chiriqui
Helping out with games and activities during the Chinese New Year Evangelistic Meeting
There will be around 90 people (adults, youth and children) in the one-day event. Please also pray for Rev. Michael Lau from Toronto as he will be the speaker for the meeting.
To save time, I will take the midnite bus Wednesday nite to David, and will take the 3am bus back to Panama Friday. Please pray for my safety

Saturday, Feb 9th - Youth Camp pre-meeting

Sunday, Feb 10th - Boat trip at 6 p.m
I will share during this four-hour boat trip. There will be around 30 to 40 youth, mainly from university fellowships.

Monday, February 11th to Friday, February 15th - Chinese Youth camp
My main role: Leading the games team which take care of all games and activities during the afternoon group time/free time, workshop speaker

THIRD WEEK: a 3-days workshop in helping the fellowship to set up and prepare for an upcoming Chinese camp

FORTH WEEK: another 3-days workshop in helping the first and second generation (PBC) in their Christian growing

Please keep visit www.xteam.ca for my brief updates.

Thank you for keeping me and the ministry I involve in your prayer. May God bless you too.


Saturday, February 02, 2008

2008 Winterlicious + Dessert

Tonight I have a wonderful Winterlicious Dinner + Dessert Night with some brothers and sisters from my church.

Due to late booking, we almost can't find any place to go. Thanks to Enoch, we find the Arriba Restaurant which sits inside Rogers Centre / Renaissance Toronto Hotel Downtown. Well, at first I did not have high expectations. But it does go much more that I expect...! The food is good and the service is good too...! Wonderful...!

With a early dinner (we finish at 7), we decide not to waste the rest of our night. We went to have dessert at somewhere we seldom go. We choose the Demetre on Bloor West. Sigh, getting old la... as I make a mistake that it is on Lakeshore, thus we get lost and also touch down in Mississauga. Fortunately, a nice girl who works in Shoppers let us know that its not on Lakeshore but Bloor. Thank you...! Without her, we might not able to try those nice crapes and icecream.

You can click here to see our pictures... :P

The night was wonderful... Thank you guys..


Logan, the Sky Angel Cowboy

Wow... This is so inspirational...!!!




Friday, January 25, 2008

瞓身 - 高皓正


名稱:訓身
歌手:高皓正
作曲:謝國維
填詞:高皓正
編曲:謝國維
監製:舒文


情信要是會寄失 寄一百封都不會甜蜜
和我晚飯也吃得委屈 見得太多開始變質
所以不斷問自己 有沒有將最好盡力地捐贈給你
然而為你做到接近完美為何到頭來你在抱某個手臂

但求全身瞓下去 天真到無懼被連累
若想被愛 要先愛人 不惜去盡情被搾取
給你無條件愛下去 只須你仍舊 留我在身邊寄居
不怕一天多幾個情敵來臨被人殘害都始終不識趣

如要愛就要固執 或者撐得多一個回合
嫌棄我令我更加專一 或許你欣賞這美德
可笑的越是認真 我越覺得愛戀像末日一樣黑暗
然而未吻別過我就能繼續煩惱自尋 贊助你兩個的吻

但求全身瞓下去 天真到無懼被連累
若想被愛 要先愛人 不惜去盡情被搾取
給你無條件愛下去 只須你仍舊 留我在身邊寄居
不怕一天多幾個情敵來臨被人殘害都始終不識趣

全力去搏盡而誰替我領取

想繼續全身瞓下去 天生愛疲累才渴睡
甚麼是愛 到底愛誰 都只有別人被讚許
戀愛唯求給你樂趣 儘管太殘酷 無悔負擔這創舉
不怕一天多幾個情敵來臨被人遺下都不識得心碎
能娛樂過你 誰介意與你登不登對




Tuesday, January 22, 2008

Maple Leaf GM Ferguson fired

Finally, Maple Leaf fired their GM Ferguson.

"After full consideration of the Leafs' situation, it has become clear that change and a new direction is needed,'' stated MLSE President and CEO Richard Peddie at a press conference held at the Air Canada Centre Tuesday. "Regrettably, we did not win enough games to reach our goal, winning the Stanley Cup."

New direction? Wasn't that our direction is to win the Stanley Cup? Oops... sorry, that is our goal. Yes, direction is how to reach that goal.

Yes, we need new direction, not a new goal.

"Our ideal candidate will be a long-term builder and a short-term fixer who has an established track record of success on the ice," explained Peddie. "Along with experience and extensive knowledge in the areas of drafting and identifying talent in the professional, amateur and international ranks, this individual will be comfortable with the intense scrutiny within the Toronto hockey market and will work effectively with the media.

"He will have the full autonomy to lead this hockey club in the manner he feels is best," added Peddie.

Well, I really pray that he can really find (and better he finds) the right person in his mindset. Always, right person at the right position. Otherwise, everything is just another show, another myth, another lie in front of the camera, but no real things are on the ground.

Go Leafs Go...!


Sunday, January 20, 2008

Reflect again

During Sunday cell group, we watch the movie "Evan Almighty". This is the fourth time for me to see this movie, everytime got me into some reflections and emotions.

In the movie, God ask Evan to built an ark in prepare for the flood coming up on Sept 22. Despite having to give up some of his dream job, Evan built an ark on time: Sept 22 midday. But on September 22, it comes with clear skies, and Evan loads the hundreds of animals onto the newly finished ark in front of live news crews and nearby citizens. Minutes pass with clear skies, so spectators start jeering at him. Dark clouds appear and rain starts pouring down. Evan tells everyone to board the ark but no one listens. The rain suddenly stops and everyone starts laughing at Evan. Even Joan, Evan's wife, tells Evan to leave the ark, but Evan refused.

The flood finally did come when the dam then breaks and the crowd witnesses the flood of water approaching. Panic overtakes everyone and they board the ark. The ark sails down the streets of Washington D.C. from the flooded water of the burst lake until it eventually lands touching the front of the Capitol. At the end, God reappears to Evan, telling him that the way to change the world is by doing one Act of Random Kindness ("ARK") at a time

Sometimes, I really don't know why God is asking me to do this and that, like Evan doesn't know about the reason for the ark. I just know that there is a day like Sept 22, that something will happen.

But when is the time for this day to come...?

TOUGH WAIT...!


Sunday, January 13, 2008

Encouragement from God

A song during this morning worship inspire me today. Its a song of encouragement from God which represent my prayer.



我的主是你的教導:「儆醒禱告, 不要灰心。」
我的主, 是你的話語:「只需相信, 必可得到。」

也許今天不見動靜, 彷彿找不到一點跟蹤影,
教我心堅固, 完全相信, 神賜下的應許;

求告你的必不至失望, 尋找便必找得到;
求賜我信心, 開心中的眼, 讓我看那不可見的你。


Friday, January 11, 2008

心中的不安 ?!?!

This morning when I was driving in downtown, some emotions came out from my heart when I saw those street-sleepers.

Watching them having an afternoon nap after their lunch, I am asking God, why...? Why some people doing nothing, still having a more steady life than I do...?

I work and work, what have I done wrong...? Why I am still having a lower income than those who are sitting there and doing nothing but bu__ shi__ing... and claiming the fault on others but not themselves? Why they will have a better reputation then I have? Why people still think that they are doing a better job than I do?

God, should I change my style? I am stuck. I am no where.
Why? Honestly, I don't think I have that kind of spirituality that superior than others, but for sure I don't think I am that far with you... then why? Why you award them when high post and salary, and I am still working dead out there and having one small salary which not even able to pay for the enjoyment of having a family trip for Vanacouver during Christmas holiday...?!?!?!

Why...? God, I need the answer...

And as my thoughts still flying... God answer me. (This is always the part I lovely hated, as God always answer my prayer...!!!)

With my CD player playing the song 煙火 of 光良... I have to apologize to God.

是否還記得 一起看煙火 我在你眼裡 看到閃爍
冷冽的寒風 把你吹向我 抱你在我懷中 沒想太多

愛情裡的心動常常讓我難以去捉摸 付出感情太多 原來多情人 總被傷的最重

想起你的擁抱這感覺 短暫紀念 在你我之間 有時說變就變 就像煙火 下一秒消失不見
想起你的微笑這畫面 短暫紀念 放在心裡面 你說過的永遠 留在昨天 就當它是我最美的紀念

冷冽的寒風 把你吹向我 抱你在我懷中 沒想太多

愛情裡的心動常常讓我難以去捉摸 付出感情太多 原來多情人 總被傷的最重

想起你的擁抱這感覺 短暫紀念 在你我之間 有時說變就變 就像煙火 下一秒消失不見
想起你的微笑這畫面 短暫紀念 放在心裡面 你說過的永遠 留在昨天 就當它是我最美的紀念

我的心情今天已換了季 天邊出現彩虹
晴朗陽光灑在我的天空 閃爍
像是笑著告訴我 愛到最後是寬容

想起你的擁抱這感覺 短暫紀念 在你我之間 有時說變就變 就像煙火 下一秒消失不見
想起你的微笑這畫面 短暫紀念 放在心裡面 你說過的永遠 留在昨天 就當它是我最美的紀念
還有你陪我走過這一切 記憶中裡 那些微笑的臉

Seems like God is asking me... "Why you always try to compare yourselve with others...? Did I not giving you grace enough...?"

"You have a car, a family, a job... its already better than many of the people, some of them even wealthier than you. Don't you think you have a happier life than most of those you envy with...?"

"Don't you just enjoy the lovely relationship between you and me?"
"My lovely child, just don't leave me... you will enjoy the intimacy...!

Sigh, this is the fun part of being a Christian, who believe in God, you are not 阿Q, but you really can get the answer from God. God will always care about me, and give me the best I should have. Kelvin, just calm down, don't worry. Justice will always be in God's world.

GOD, THANK YOU...! YOU ARE SO LOVELY...! I LOVE YOU...!




不捨得你 不捨得你 仍需給你走

Bookhouse is closing out... finally... its really gone.

不捨得... 不捨得... 不捨 不得...

不捨得你 不捨得你 仍需給你走
恨我找不住痴情 不敢牽你手
不捨得你 不捨得你 為何開不了口
為著發覺 你夢中想要的 而我沒有

我明瞭 你不能留 縱使付出多少 也不回頭
我明瞭 你不能留 縱使付出多少 到底分手

共你別去 說聲珍重 再沒有可求
恨我找不住痴情 不敢牽你手
不捨得你 不捨得你 為何開不了口
為著發覺 我夢中想要的 已被帶走

不捨得你 不捨得你 仍需給你走


Thursday, January 10, 2008

AFC Book House Closeout

Public Announcement from the Board of Directors
Ambassadors for Christ in Canada
(January 10, 2008)

For the past 30 years, the Gospel Book House has been a parallel ministry of Ambassadors For Christ in association with the student ministry. In recent years, while we have experienced the increasing need and rapid development on the side of student ministry, we also see that quite a number of Christian bookstores have been established, and have aptly filled the need for Chinese Christian literature in the Greater Toronto Area. The Board of Directors, after careful consideration, has decided to discontinue the operation of the Gospel Book House (effective March 1, 2008), for the purpose of directing the resources to the development of student ministry. The board would like to thank everyone for all their support and contributions to the Gospel Book House over all these years. A closeout clearance sale will begin immediately. For further information, please contact (416)494-7171 or visit AFC website www.afc-ca.org.

加拿大基督使者協會董事會通告
(2008年1月10日)

「加拿大基督使者協會」之福音書屋,服事眾教會已經超過三十年,其運作與學生福音事工平衡發展。惟近年學生福音事工之需要及發展激增,亦見本市有不少基督教書房相繼投入服務,屬靈書籍供應充足。有鑑及此,「使者」董事會經慎重考慮後,議決於2008年3月1日起,停止福音書屋之運作,而將「使者」資源集中於發展學生福音事工。在此感謝主內同道多年來對「福音書屋」之支持。書屋於即日起將進行結業清貨大減價。如有任何查詢,請致電(416)494-7171或瀏覽本會網頁www.afc-ca.org 。謹此敬告,祈為垂注。

AFC Gospel Book House Closeout Clearance Sale

All Bibles, Books & Audio Visual items 30% off
All Greeting Cards & Gift Items 40 % off
Discontinued Books $1.00 each
Selected items up to 60 % off
All sales are final, no return and exchange

使者福音書屋 結業清貨大減價

所有聖經 ,書籍及影音產品 7 折
所有禮品 6 折
斷版書籍 $1.00
其他貨品最低減至 4 折
所有貨品 不設退換


Wednesday, January 09, 2008

Heading to Panama

After weeks of wandering around... my mission plan to Panama finally be finalized.

I will be heading to Panama from Feb 5 to Mar 3.

My "four objectives" for this trip...
First week: Help to prepare the boat trip program and be the "messenger"
Second week: Panama Summer Youth camp
Third week: Help the fellowship to set up and prepare for an upcoming chinese camp
Forth: Help the second generation (PBC) in their christian growing

Please pray for me...


Saturday, January 05, 2008

Thank you Tony...

Tony,
Really thank you for having a very successful cosmetic surgery on the head of my wife. The job was done wonderfully and I cannot ask more from you. You really help her to look great again... THANK YOU...!!!
Kelvin


Tuesday, January 01, 2008

Happy 2008...!

I am so happy because I have a wonderful start in the year of 2008. It starts fresh from the very first hour...!

Thank you for giving me such a memorable moment. You know who you are... THANK YOU...!